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Spn Con

Hi. I say walking out with Jensen and Jared.

Hi. the crowd says. We get to the questions.

So, what was the worst thing your kids have done.

Well mine cussed. Jared said

Mine will talk back. Jensen said

So, my kids. Haha. We run a YouTube channel,they're good on camera. So, my four year old was doing something she wasn't supposed to. And I go '' October! October!''. She turn around with this total guilty look. I go " Do you need to got to time out?" She look over at me with all the sassyness and goes. " Shut up mommy." The crowd went oo. I go "what did you say!". She got annoyed and yelled at the top of her lungs. " SHUT THE HECK UP!!" Oh, I was mad. I got even more mad when Aphrodite cam up and kicked her. You guys don't see me mad but I do get mad. Time out for both of them.

30 mins later

A special guest has a birthday to day. Jensen said. I see my husband and cliff and Misha come on stage with a cake. How old are you turning? They ask.

23. I say

Your 23 and have four kids. They ask

Yep. I say. My brother Tal is 23. I say.

We have a surprise. They say just then I see Tal. I haven't seen him in months. He has been on a important trip.

Tal. I squeal and run to him. I jump on top of him. I wrap my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist. Tal. I say

Hi, Okalyie. He says. I blush at the nickname. I feel tears on my more of a light brown hair. I look up to see Tal a waterfall of tears rushing down his cheeks. I jump off.

Baby boy. I say whipping does tears. I kiss him on the cheek. I whisper in his ear. " Hey, maybe after we can go get Ice Cream and you and Adi can see behind the scenes of our filming?." I whisper. He smiled and shook his head before leaving.

What were you saying. A fan asked

I was saying this. I said mind your own business ma'ma. I said. Okay next question.

Hi, Neva. She says

Hi, what is your question sweetheart. I say

First of all you guys are amazing. You have been my role models for ever. (Her voice cracked from trying not to cry.) You helped me. I know I might be eight but I was diagnose with depression at three. Then when I was four and a half. I.. I um. She held back tears. I started to cut myself. That's after my mom left. My dad became abusive and an drunk. Now I live with my grandma and grandpa. They're not the best either. They neglect me. I bought theses tickets for this con. I worked like crap for these. Last year I committed suicide. I just couldn't deal with all the pain anymore. I see Jensen and Jared tears down their cheeks. I have a waterfall of tears. Then after that I found Jared. He looked up with tear stained cheeks. Your always keep fighting campaign. Jensen yours and Misha's your not alone campaign. Then the show. Two years ago. It gave me a reason to live. Feel like I have a purposes in this world. Not that my family cares about me. She starts crying on the inside. I have been through so much crap, child authorities are on my family. I might be in a orphanage soon. Were are my feeling, I no longer feel things inside. I'm lost and I can't breath. I almost died three months ago. My grandparents stopped being mister and missis perfect. One day they hit me and call me names. I know I'm off line but I can really be a brat sometimes. Then on day my grandfather almost chocked me to death. No wonder I'm assaulted in a bad way when I'm seven, by my grandfather. ( when she said that the crowd gasped. Jensen and Jared and Me start to bawl. We know what she means) Got Cancer at seven. Just got over it two weeks ago. This my hair is long because it grows at a rapid pace. I'm not going to hold a grudge against them. Grudges can kill. I don't have the heart to hurt others. I have to great of a heart. Your the ones that made me feel like I mean something. Even though I might have depression, anxiety. Once my peers told me to die. But you all because of you. You gave me a reason to live. You help me through it all. You put a smile on my face. What is so wrong with me that my family hates me for? Huh? Is it that I'm broken. Well I can have less emotional support than them. See this raggedy to small shirt and jeans? Huh. All the clothes I have. But I have to be strong right. Smiling is better then crying. If you want to be seen as a strong person? Well that's what I want. I shouldn't be this broken. I'MA FREAK. I should die. I've had enough. I go over pick her up. Put her on my shoulders and give her to Jensen. So, she can cry on his shoulder. My question is how do you get through the tough times without have a mental or emotional breakdown. My dad is doing a three year sentence. She said into Jensen's shirt.

Wow. Jensen talks into his mic a waterfall of tears down his face. What I do is that I... I just kind of hold back tears. Keep going know people care for me. He said. Tears flowing down his face. I haven't actually seen him break down before.

Quick message. The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not wish to see you suffer the way you do. You cry when you alone because you want to be seen as a strong person, at the same time though, you hate how no one notices how broken you are. My point is this please don't judge anyone you don't know what they've been through. Say

Well what I do is Try everything to distract myself from it. Me and Jared say in unison.

She staying up here. I say. I put her on my shoulders and gave her to Jensen. We answered many more questions. Then we left. We left to let Misha do a panel. That little girl dude. I say

Yeah, she been through hell and back. She has been hurt. She seven she shouldn't be that broken! Jensen says

Yeah, your right. I say

We need to stop this. Tal said

Yeah, its not fair. I say

Lets start a campaign for this monstrosity. Jared says