It doesn't hurt. I don't care. It doesn't hurt. I don't care.
Xandra is just entertainment. Xandra is entertainment only.
She is not playing me; I am playing her.
I repeat these words over and over begging myself to believe them. It's a simple task and I just need to clear my mind. Clear you mind, every thought Vita. List the facts and take a deep breath.
My name is Vita Thomas. I am 19 years old. I fell in love with a teacher in high school and let her take advantage of me. That's over now and I am over her... for the most part. It still hurts, but how can a four year affair just disappear from my mind? Its okay to be upset about it sometimes.
My name is Vita Thomas. I am 19 years old. I moved to Las Vegas after my mom died of cancer. Xandra Tercek is a snake and I refuse to fall in love with her, no matter how hard it is. I will continue in this fling, but also run my side business with Boris.
My name is Vita Thomas. I am 19 years old. Sex is a meaningless act of pleasure and I'm going to make bank off of it.
"Vita are you still sleeping?" I jump at the sudden sound of Xandra's voice. "Are you feeling okay?"
"Yeah, I was just up late studying." I turn my body away from her.
After setting up the hang out spot and hearing Xandra tell Larry that she still loves him, I went into full work mode for days. Midterms are coming up so when I'm not sending creeps pictures of my body, I'm doing homework. I updated my rates and now sell pictures in lingerie. No naked pictures, not yet at least.
"Wanna come help me bake some scones?" Her fingers are now running through my hair.
"Maybe in a bit." I sigh.
Once she leaves, I sit up and pull my hair back. There's no use in hiding out to stress in my room, so I go downstairs, plop onto the couch, and turn on Frozen 2. Never will I ever get tired of this movie. It's comforting in a way that I don't know how to explain.
"Scoot." Xandra taps my shoulder. I sit up and she slides behind me. "Have you been avoiding me?" Her arms tighten around my body and she lightly bites down on ear.
"No, I just have a lot of work." I turn over so I can lay my head on her chest and my arms wrap around her. This means nothing, I just need the comfort.
"Why do I feel like you're lying to me?" She playfully laughs.
"Well I'm not lying about that."
She takes a moment to processes my words before grabbing my chin to force me to look up. "What are you lying about then?"
I pull my face away and tuck it back into it's original spot. "Don't worry about it."
"Vita." Her voice is strict.
I stay quiet, twirling a lock of her golden hair. "Can we go upstairs?"
She's caught off guard and scoffs. "What?"
"Will you take me upstairs please, mommy?" I lean my hips in to put pressure on her core.
"Vita?" She laughs, but I lick her collarbone, silencing her.
"Pretty please?" I whine and bite down on her soft skin.
When she doesn't answer after a few minutes, I give up and lay my head back down. I feel defeated and I hope she can't feel the racing of my anxious heart. I'm so frustrated that I want to cry and my breathing becomes heavier.
"Shhh, calm down sweetheart." She runs her fingers through my messy curls and tries to sooth me. "You're alright, just breath, baby."
My name is Vita Thomas. I am 19 years old. Moving here was a mistake and I'm terrified of the moment I lose this woman.
"Breath." She rubs circles on my back and lays her head on top of mine.
The part of Frozen 2 when Anna sings the lullaby to Elsa comes on and I take a deep breath. I cup Xandra's cheek as if to steady myself and dissolve into the melody. How I wish it was Xandra's voice I hear and not Kristen Bell's. Don't get me wrong, she's an amazing singer, but all that matters is Xandra. I hate the fact that I feel that way but its true. It's why I have to sell those pictures. It's why I have to sell my body. If I've mentally given myself to Xandra alone there is no going back. I will have a full circle of what happened in high school and I can't relive that pain. This side business is what's keeping me from believing she owns me.
"Vita, did you by any chance hear me and Larry arguing the other day?"
"Shhh, I like this song." I mumble.
Where the north wind meets the sea
There's a river full of memory
Sleep, my darling, safe and sound
For in this river all is found
In her waters, deep and true
Lay the answers and a path for you
Dive down deep into her sound
But not too far or you'll be drowned
I draw little swirls on her chest with my fingers as I hum along with the song. I feel Xandra smile against my head. "You're just so stressed this week aren't you, sweetheart?"
"Mhm." I sigh as pitifully as I can.
"You want mommy to help you relax?" She gives in.
"Mhm." I look up her with puppy eyes until her sweet smile turns devious.
I pull her off the couch and drag her up the stairs. The discomfort between my legs is growing by the second as I go to her closet and rummage through all her things before pulling out her special box. She laughs at my carelessness as I pull out her strap on and a small vibrator. Still on my knees, I crawl over to where she stands and kiss all over her exposed tummy. I'm trying to unbutton her shorts when she gently places her hands over mine to assist. I can't help but look up and smile at her.
Xandra pulls me up, attacking my lips and I moan into her mouth. Her hands are working faster than my brain and suddenly I'm naked, laying flat on the bed. She bites her lip as she straps the toy to her hips and throws her top to the floor, leaving to completely naked.
"Tell mommy your safe word." She reminds me, trailing kisses and leaving marks on my neck.
"Peaches." I hold back the urge to beg her.
"Good girl." She mumbles, running the tip against my center.
I curl my toes in anticipation and spread my legs wider. Xandra sits up, grabs my hips, and gently moves the toy into me. A groan that I've only ever made twice in my life falls from my lips and I grab her wrist. She squeezes my hip, completely amused by my need to hold onto her.
"So desperate." She coos when I force the vibrator into her free hand then against my clit.
When she clicks it on she pushes it three times, setting it to the highest vibration. Its going to be a long, wonderful afternoon.
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It's about to get wild y'all.
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Xandra with an X
FanficAfter Vita's mother dies she moves to Las Vegas to live with her Uncle and his girlfriend, Xandra, with an X. The only character of my own is Vita and the rest are from The Goldfinch.
