ANTI - Oscar Diaz

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Slow motion
That's how everything moved.

I turned around facing this bitch who had a victorious look on her face

But as soon as her eyes met my dark ones her stance fell and she stumbled back.

Right now I didn't see a pregnant woman.
I saw a bitch that needed to be taught a lesson

"Say that again." My voice was calm as I slowly stalked towards her.

She backed away scared.

"Say.it.again." I ordered clenching and unclenching my fist.

"Rih wait-"- Chico stepped infront of me trying to stop me but all I did was knee him in the crotch

"I said say it again Emily."  I was about to lunge towards her when I felt two arms pull me back.

"You don't want to do this here Rih. We'll get her. I promise you we'll get her."  Benji whispered in my ears trying to get me to relax.

But I couldn't. 

I was staring right at this bitch and as long as she stayed in my vision I was out for her blood.

And I was desperate for it.

"Let me go Benji."  I struggled in his hold

"You want to talk about my baby? Come upclose and say it one more time and watch how you'll end up just like your fucking brothers." I screamed at her.

Keisha came into view blocking my view of her.

"Get her out of here." She spoke to someone and then turned her attention to me.

"Okay Rih, Benji's going to let go of you only if you promise not to do anything you'll regret.  I'm going to grab your hand and we're going to leave." She spoke softly and I nodded.

I really needed to get out of here.
Or else I would have to kill someone.

I felt Benji's hold on me loosen and I stood up straight.

I wanted to turn around to Oscar but I didn't want to see the look on his face.

He deserved to hear this from me.
I needed to be the one to tell him about our child not this bitch and especially not in this way.

I felt bad, I should've done it sooner but I didn't expect anyone to do it for me. Everyone who knew about it swore not to tell a soul which had me thinking

How in the world did this girl know I was pregnant?

And now everything was getting clearer. Chico. Chico was the only Santo apart from Benji who knew about my pregnancy and I knew Benji wouldn't tell a soul.

My eyes landed on Chico and my gaze turned hard.

I was going to hurt him, badly. And by the look on his face I knew that he knew that he truly fucked up.

I ignored the looks and the whispers and let Keisha drag me out of this party. 

Once outside near the car I stopped. Running my fingers through my hair in frustration. 

Tonight wasn't suppose to go down like this but it did.

"Robyn." The voice I've beed dreading to hear called out my name.

I nodded to Keisha telling her to wait in the car and then I turned around to face Oscar.

Everything was on the right track for the two of us and now he stood infront of me with a mixture of emotions on his face 

"Is it true?"  His voice was shaky.

I bit my lip. There was no use in lying to him.

I nodded my head.
"Yes."

He closed his eyes and winced.
"When? Why didn't you tell me?what the fuck happened Robyn? We were suppose to be a team. I should've known about this. Why the fuck didn't you tell me Robyn?" He shouted the last part.

I blinked to stop myself from crying.

"I found out 3 weeks before I got jumped."  My voice was small. I didn't want to relive it but I needed to talk about it. He needed to know everything as painful as it was to actually tell him.

Realisation dawned upon him as he added things together.

"Fuck." He rubbed his faced.
"That's why you left? You lost our baby that night didn't you?" He asked sadly

I nodded. "Yeah  I was 14 weeks in. We were going to have a little girl." I sniffed.

"I wanted to tell you. Trust me Oscar I did but I didn't know how to. You had a lot going on that day and I knew you already feel bad for me getting jumped and I didn't want to make you feel worse."

He walked closer to me leaving a few inches between us.

He grabbed my hand. "That doesn't matter. You should've told me. I deserved to know Rih. That was my kid too." He wasn't shouting loudly.  He wasn't yelling. His voice was stern but weak.

I knew he must be hurting inside.  I could also tell from the tears welling in his eyes.

"I know. When the doctor told me about it. All I wanted was you. I wanted you there holding my hands. Comforting me. Finding out I lost her and you not being there was the most painful thing I had to go through. I think about it everyday. How life would've been now if I didn't lose her. I think about the love we would've both given her." I wiped a tear.

"Nena, Nena look at me-"  He caressed my face with his thumb
"-Knowing that you went through all of that by yourself breaks my heart. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for not being there for you. For our baby. All this time I wanted you to be the mother of my first child. And you are. It doesn't matter if she's here with us or not. She's still our daughter."

I broke down into sobs.

Here we were in the middle of the street hugging each other both silently crying. 

"I love you. tu eres mi alma y mi vida. te quiero. Tú y nuestra pequeña niña.." He whispered in my ears
(You are my soul and my life.i love you. you and our little girl.)

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A/N :-  Quick thank you for all the love I've been getting on ANTI ❤ and for the Birthday wishes 🙌🏾

Quick Question Where are all of you from?
I'm from 🇬🇧 but I'm an Island Girl

Spent a good few hours editing some chapters and my god, my English teached would've killed me for all those mistakes. But in my defense I type really fast and I'm blind as a bat 😂