ANTI - Oscar Diaz

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It's been 4 heavenly days of doing absolutely nothing but lounge on a sun bed, sleeping, eating and just relaxing and I knew it all had to end soon.

I looked over at him, as we took our second nap of the day.

"Fucking hell I need to go back to Freeridge I can feel the the Mexican in me disappearing." He chuckled with his blunt in hand.

"Want?" He questioned and I shook my head. That's been my answer to his offers these past days. I had to tell him I had a bug after I almost died with morning sickness yesterday.

"So what are we doing tonight?" I asked sitting up turning over.

"Well we have 2 hours to sunset so I was wondering whether we could like uh, go have a sunset dinner? Is that what you call it?" He said nervously. I smiled.

"You're so adorable Ossito." I looked down at him

"Only for you."

I looked away from him.
I wa so attached to this danm boy and I don't have the slightest clue what the fuck he has me on.

"Well if we are I need to get ready." I always needed to know 2 hours in advance when I was meant to go somewhere. I need to prep myself and getting ready was a long ass process. Most of my time is spent dancing though.

I leaned down to kiss him
"Te quiero mucho mi amor." I whispered kissing him once again.

I walked to the bathroom and I did everything I needed to do. As I walked for my towel I stopped and stared at my naked body. I stood to the side my hand going to my belly.

"You're in there somewhere my little angel." I rubbed it in comfort, giving it a few pokes.

"But your daddy needs to know first." I whispered and walked over to the towel.
I frowned at the closet, I insisted we put our clothes in.

I had no idea what to wear. This was going to be a romantic dinner whilst the sun sets.

I frowned when I saw this long maxi mesh white dress. I don't remember packing it and I knew Laurice had something to do with it.

I don't do white clothes at all.
But I guess this will have to do.

I went to my make-up bag only to end up frowning down at it. I wasn't going to be wearing make-up with a white dress so I settled with just doing my eyebrows,lipgloss and some highlighter. I skipped a lot of necessary steps but at this point I didn't care if my skin broke out. It was already happening!

I didn't even notice Oscar walking into the room until he got out of the shower wrapping his arms around me.

His hands went to cup my bare tits.
"Stop. I need to get ready." I glared at him through the mirror and he shook his head walking away.

I look at the bird's nest called my hair and I decided to put it up in a messy bun. I went over to the dress and put it on.

It took me a whole hour which was something new. When I walked out, Oscar was wearing black jeans and a black shirt with white flowers on it. I smiled.

"We're matching." I teased grabbing my clutch and then moving to grabbing his hand.

"palabras no puedo explicar lo hermosa que eres"
(Words can't explain how beautiful you are)

I blushed.
It was crazy how strongly I could feel for someone. Words couldn't even begin to explain how I feel for this man. He could do no wrong in my eyes.

We decided to walk on the beach to wherever he was taking me. I stopped when I finally saw it. I looked over at him and then back to his little set up.

I tried to blink away the tears because it was so overwhelming.

Fucking hormones

"Oscar" my voice broke and I looked at him once again. "It's beautiful." I wiped a loose tear.

He held my hand and we walked closer to the setting. We were surrounded by lanterns and in the middle was a cute table with a variety of food on display.

We sat down and I just stared at him and he stared at me back with his gorgeous smile.

"I'm still trying to figure out how to sit across from you and not be madly in love with every single thing you do." He whispered and that did it for me.

I blamed these hormones for all the rush of emotion I was feeling right now. All I wanted to do was cry.

It was so hard to put him into words because I loved him in ways I've never loved someone before. It was fucking crazy how In love I was with this man.

We spent the next hour eating and just talking. Some of it didn't make sense but we just sat there enjoying each other's company whilst the sun slowly set.

I placed my hand on my bump hoping that my little person finds someone that loves them as much we loved each other.

"Come let's dance." He stood up grabbing my hand

"There's no music." I smiled but still stood up anyways

"There is,well faintly." And he was right. In the distance you could hear a violin playing a corny Ed Sheeran song.

He grabbed my hand and we started swaying to the beat.

"I don't know what's prettier. The sunset or you." He stared. I hated when people looked at me in the eyes,and I absolutely hated when Oscar did it. It made me feel so vulnerable.

"You got the corny ass lines out tonight." I teased. This was the man that hated these kind of things. And here he was. He could probably write a book with all the shit he's said this past week.

"Robyn." I frowned looking up when he stopped. The look in his eyes scared me.
He stepped away from me and took me in

"I want to marry you someday." I smiled at that because that's something we talked about a lot

"And I want to marry you someday too."

He looked pass me nervous and then my eyes widened when he went down on one knee. I stood there stunned with tears welling in my eyes

"I don't want to marry you just to be able to wake up next you everyday or be with you forever. Trust me That's the shit I'm aiming for. But I want to marry you because marriage is hard, raising kids is hard, the bills we have to pay,  our family, all this gang shit is fucking hard, we're basically blending two families together. I've never had many family around me but you. You're one of the consistent things in my life." He chuckled looking down
"-all these shit is hard hermossa and you're the person I want to go through bad times with. You're my soul mate, and life is never going to be all butterflies and rainbows just because of it.Life is hard and I want to marry you and love you every day through every bump in the road. I want to marry you to be your rock through every curve ball and to look at you when everything else is falling apart. I don't want to marry you because it's cute and exciting. I want to marry you because it's real and hard work and a lifetime of ups and downs with you is worth every second of it."

I placed my hand in front of my mouth to not sob any louder. I don't know which one of us was crying more.

"I love you Robyn Tiller, there's no one else I want to spend my life with. So would you do me the honour of being my wife?" He pulled out a box and I couldn't see the ring properly with all the tears. I was crying so much my words getting chocked up so I settled for nodding.
"Yes Yes" I shook my head vigorously.

He got off his feet, and I didn't even give him a chance to put the ring on my finger because my arms were wrapped around him and my lips was on his.

"I love you."