How To Sin | ateez

30

The light of the sun which was shining through the curtains normally during the day was vastly replaced with the moon's. The day had passed quickly and came into an end. And most importantly someone you definitely weren't excited to see had left.

Park Seonghwa.

Your mind was a mess. A whole mess. But at the end everything was a mess wasn't it?

Since you've stepped in this town everything was aggravating. Not to mention, very weird and creepy too. And very fast. Everything would happen in a bling not giving you time to process. The fact that you had to come to an realization right now about it scared you even more. Who are these people? It's like you've been woken up from a dream. The only sad truth was that it wasn't. It was reality. Mere reality. And it made you wonder. Wonder how, everything would happen to you. Maybe it was certainly cause you entered a world you weren't supposed to. Or did you not?

Whatsoever, it wasn't your intention and either was the place you felt comfortable in to be. The urge to tell your parents to move out of town again suddenly ran through your veins as tears were spreading down your cheek. Everything suddenly hits you.
You've been used, lied to, hurt, touched without permission, even abused. In ways you couldn't explain. And you still stood there ignoring thinking it's nothing else rather than just exploring. But it was all a fucking lie. And you were caught in your head up like that.

"Bullshit."

You whisper as you wipe your tears away. Thinking of Jung Wooyoung's words he had whispered to you from the end of the line in the morning. And again,
Bullshit. As you think of what happened with Park Seonghwa earlier. Bullshit, everyone was full of bullshit. You press your face into the pillow as hiccups escape your lips.

Why did you choose to fucking date him? Sudden anger overcomes you. Jung Wooyoung didn't even deserve you. He was acting in ways no human being would. But all that was the last thing you thought with your too soft heart. What run through your mind was how you were going to confess to him about what happened with Seonghwa. Even more the fact that you were supposed to marry that male soon. You quickly needed someone to talk, it was too overwhelming to keep everything that was going on in.

And just then you realize, you had no one. You were caught in a world full of men to even give your best friend a call. And then you realize she didn't even contact you anymore. Does she also do not care, and see your worth? Well maybe after all it was not just her fault. It goes both ways. It can't always be her checking up on you.

You sigh as you grab your phone thinking if you should give her a call at the time that showed already 2am or not but exactly then you receive one. Your eyes widened as you inwardly hope it to be her since you also realized how much you missed her, but you soon get disappointed. Well more of surprised as the caller ID UNKNOWN pops up on the screen. You furrow your eyebrows but don't hesitate to accept. Even though you were scared.

"Hello?"

Is the first thing you say without even pausing to listen cause you were panicking and your breath was hitching. It was scary to get a call at that time especially from an unknown ID.

"Hana."

A deep male's voice tones on the end of the line and your breath hitches as soon as you recognize it. Your eyes flicker with sparkles as your grip around your phone gets harder.