rage and recovery

what combination of words will make you mine?

where is the sweet spot?

where do i go wrong?

it feels as though i waffle

between complete indifference

and enamored like a yo-yo

and i thought i was what you wanted

but something, somewhere, somehow

went terribly wrong

and you are playing the game

of yo-yo emotions with me

and i want nothing more

than to figure out a way

to cut the string to this yo-yo

and tether us to the ground

and figure this out.

because i want you like I've

never ever wanted anything before

and it scares me because

im not scared of you

even though i feel like i should be.

is it supposed to be this hard?

am i supposed to keep wondering

if im doing the right thing?

because i dont know how else to tell you

that when i see the sunshine

i think of you

and when i hear a country song

i think of you

and when i close my eyes

all i see is you.

shouldnt that be enough?

what is holding you back?

all ive ever told you is

what i knew to be the truth

when it passed my lips.

and the one thing that has always been true

is that i feel something when i look at you.