Forbidden Gang Love // Jelena

Chapter 38

Selena's P.O.V.

"Demi!" I yell for the tenth time.

She still pretends she doesn't hear me and keeps walking. She's completely ignoring me for the stupidest reason. Well, maybe not the stupidest reason but that's not the point. I race up to her and pull her back.

"What the fuck do you want?" she scowls with no emotion what so ever.

"Why the hell are you ignoring me?"

"Are you seriously asking me that?! You know exactly why."

"What? If I knew why would I bother asking you?!"

"Bother?! You're such a bitch, Selena!"

"You're the one acting like the bitch here!" I yell back.

"You're a fucking betrayer!"

"Just because I'm in love, suddenly I'm a betrayer!? Wow I never thought it'd be that way in your eyes."

She freezes and shoots me a confused look. "You're in what?"

"You heard me, don't act stupid."

"Repeat it if you really mean it."

I take a deep breath. "I'm in love with him."

She bursts out into fits of laughter.

I look at her more confused than I have ever been.

"What's so funny about that?" I groan.

She takes long breaths in attempt to regain herself. "I-I used to make fun of you guys being together."

"But you didn't know we were together?"

"Ah-ha! I knew you two were together before! But I always assumed it, remember? That one time we went over to his house for dinner, Pattie and I were annoying you guys about 'your secret love making place'. How could you not remember?" she let's out a dry laugh.

"I remember. . . if you knew why did you get so mad when you saw us at the apartments?"

We sit down by the gate of her house.

"Well, I thought you guys broke up. . . you are with Jose. Justin and I spent a lot of time together after. . . Is it bad that I liked him?" she asks quietly.

"I knew you liked him," I sigh.

"Look I'm sorry if i-"

"Don't apologize, Sel."

"Huh?"

"You don't chose who you fall in love with," she says. "It totally sucks that your guy just happens to be second head in our rival gang."

"I know. . . You seriously think I'm a traitor?"

"Technically you are," she laughs.

"Shut up, I'm serious," I laugh.

"If you were to tell everyone. . . they would definitely see you as a traitor. They would probably lock you up and make you watch them torture Justin before they kill him. . . I mean, that's what they did to ChaCha's lover."

I shake my head. "I would never let them find out. . . I couldn't handle it like ChaCha did."

"I don't see you as a traitor. . . I know you wouldn't see me as one if I were to secretly date a guy from another gang," she smiles. "Not that I'm crazy enough to do that but you get the point."

I shot her a glare but end up laughing along with her.

"He's a good guy, Sel. I got to know him. . . a glimpse of the real Justin."

"He's amazing," I smile and look at her.

She nods and gets up, offering me her hand. I take it and she pulls me to my feet.

"Are you ready to take down Peur? Months of planning finally gonna pay off, bitch."

I laugh and nod. "I've been ready, puta."

"I just gotta make sure my aunt agrees to watch Maddie before anything goes down," she sighs. "If anything happens to me, I don't want her alone with our bastard parents."

"Demi, nothing will happen to you. The plan has been well thought our, so that no one or barely anyone is hurt. You'll come back to her, I promise."

She nods hesitantly. "I know but just in case you may never knew what'll happen."

"I know but you shouldn't think like that," I smile at her. "Have confidence!"

"Shut up," she laughs.

We walk along the alley, making our way to Demi's aunt's house.

"Hey, have you even told him?" She randomly asks.

"Told who what?"

"Justin how you feel."

"About me loving him? I didn't need too, he told me first," I smile thinking back to it.

She smiles and sighs. "I hope you guys work out, Selena."

I sigh and nod. "Me too. . . me too."

"I wouldn't want to have to drag you out of the darkness like we had to do when they killed ChaCha's lover."

"I wouldn't let you drag me out."

She shoots me a confused look but looks away, letting it go. "It was worse with her though. . . her lover was from Peur."

I say silent, just staring into space wondering. Wondering what the hell am I doing? How could I possible let myself fall completely and utterly in love with him? I could get him killed.