(ON HOLD) Tell Me When I'm Good Enough ($uicideboy$/$crim story)

One

Scrim

I hate LA I just want to go home. I'm not good at these 'celebrity' events. At least after we have showed our face here we could go to Emonite. That I was looking forward to. We normally refused to come places like this but we where trying to promote Black Fray so we had to be seen out and about. It was an industry party and they are the worst. It's fine chatting to artists that you like but its the industry people I just don't vibe with. They can be so fake. I must have zoned out because Pouya was literally shaking me.

"Earth to Scott" he chuckles

"Sorry mane. Just hate being at these things" I rub my face trying to bring myself back to life

"Yeah they ain't the best. Id feel better if I had my girl here" he sighs

"Where is the lovely Coco?" I lean my elbow on his shoulder

"She's in New York for the weekend" he seemed bummed

"It's strange being at one of these sober. You see so much that you didn't notice before" I chuckle

"Like what? Enlighten me" Pouya laughs

"Well for starters I'd say 95% of the room is on some form of narcotics. I can see the ups and the downs. People that you wouldn't think either" I crane my head looking through the crowd

"Suprise me, who's fucked up?" He follows my gaze. A pair of eyes lock with mine as I scan the crowd. I look at them up and down contemplating.

"Her" I point, knowing she can see me talking about her. She doesn't flinch just watches me blankly.
"Amber, MGK's girlfriend"

"Nah, she's a pop Princess. She ain't no closet pill popper" Pouya chuckles

"Believe me man, she's definitely on coke at least. I can tell" she's still watching me with her expression blank.

"Is she staring at you mane? Fuck do you think she knows what you said" Pouyas eyes go wide

"Who's staring at you?" Oddy and his girl head over

"Amber" Pouya blurts out

"She's hot" Oddys girl stands on her tiptoes to look

"Yeah she is, huh" I look back up and she's moved away now standing with her back to us. She was hot. Nice legs, nice ass, great tits , not too skinny but I could guarantee she had a personality of a Barbie. I didnt know much of her music but it was total fluff from what I'd heard. I've no idea how her and MGK had got together they must be totally opposites of eachother. Well they do say opposites attract.

After we had made our rounds and spent the minimum amount of time we had to at the event we headed for the door. MGK pulled me into a hug

"I didn't know yall where here, yall heading out?" He shakes everyone's hands

"Yeah we're heading over to Emonite" Pouya says

"Oh well, we will see you there then" an English accent says from beside MGK. I look over, lazily dragging my eyes up from her feet finally up to her face where her eyes lock with mine. She just watched me completely check her out. She smirks and cocks her eyebrow at me. I look at her face properly. Tanned skin, high cheekbones, cute little nose, plump lips and eyes like sparkling topaz's. She's gorgeous.

"We are just going to get changed and we will see yall there" he motions to his suit. I look back over to her wearing a red dress that goes down to her calf's with a split that goes up to her hip. Definitely not Emonite attire. She definitely didn't look like Emonite material either. She looked too young and straight-laced. Maybe she was going to be with him. That shit didn't sit well with me, I don't get why girls would do that. Sit through something they don't enjoy because their man does. Surely he could take someone who wants to actually go and enjoy it. Like Coco didn't come to our shows sometimes because she would be sat by herself or be stuck with us lot. Untill Oddys girl, Shay came along now she enjoys them more. Now Oddys girl, she's one of the guys so that's a little different

Pouya pushes me towards the door and out of my thoughts as I pull my face away from her realising I've been staring. She just winks and waves as I stumble out the door.

Wtf is wrong with me

The journey from the event to Emonite wasn't long so I didn't have time to dwell on what had happened. However I did realise that there was only one VIP which ment we would all be in quite close proximity with eachother.

We went on for our set not longer after we arrived. Halfway through our first song I spotted MGK and (x) being led in but security. I saw in my peripheral vision that she was rapping along to our songs. I didn't take her for a $uicideboy$ fan.

I clock the outfit change. She's in black cycling shorts a black crop top and a flannel tied round her waist with battered checkered vans on her feet. She looked hot in this outfit too. Probably hotter in my opinion. I have to  consciously make myself concentrate. I've messed up some words already being distracted by her pretty face. I'm supposed to remember the words now I'm sober not forget them. I must just need to get laid. It's been a while. Like a year. I've had my dick sucked but that's about it. The last person I had sex with was before rehab. And they where one of the reasons I went to rehab. Now I was sober it didn't feel right to hit it and dip it and I hadn't let myself get close enough to anyone to want to get to know them.

I'm struggling to stop myself from turning to look at her. That must be it im just horny