(ON HOLD) Tell Me When I'm Good Enough ($uicideboy$/$crim story)

Thirteen

I showered and Shay lent me some cycling shorts and a cropped vest that I put over the bikini I'd put on. I dryed my hair and lent some makeup so it didn't look like I'd been crying all night. Like I had, he wasn't allowed to know that though.

I appeared downstairs and every single person stared at me. I look down at myself and back up to them

"What?" I furrow my brows confused. They all just muttered apologies and no's. I look sceptical and walk off shaking my head. The kitchen has now been restocked and I can see a few people from last night's party turning up with bags of drink and drugs in tow. I raise an eyebrow at $crim as he's stood talking to his friends as they are popping pills.

I grab a bottle of water from the fridge hearing them saying vulgar stuff about me not realising that im close enough to hear what they are saying. He cuts them off telling them to stop, saying that I'm off limits. That no-ones to talk to me let alone touch me. Wasn't sure if that was for my safety or his possessiveness. I turned and rolled my eyes at them as they eyed me walking past.

"We are going shopping!" Lexi runs up to me.

"Whoa, your not going shopping round here alone" $crim practically tackles us.

"I'm going with" Ruby rolls his eyes as he brings up the rear with his girlfriend and Coco.
"Come on ladies, let's go"

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We all mill about the mall for a while. We go in and out of many stores and end up carrying alot of bags back to the car. We nearly didn't fit...

Once we get back to the house I bump into Adam, the photographer. He asks if he could work on taking some sexy female pictures with us all. We all get changed into our swimwear and meet him back down at the pool. You could hear the guys getting hot and bothered at us all sat in bikinis again. However this time we where posing. Adam was really good at direction. He knew what he wanted. He wanted a picture of us all doing what he said is my signature pose. Sat with legs wide leaning back on your hands with the booty and the boobs out. I didn't even realise I did it that often.

$crims face was set. His jaw clenched. I'm not even completely sure why. I hadn't done anything wrong and I don't think anything had happened while we where gone.

The party continued and us girls just stayed out by the pool untill it started to get chilly. I ran upstairs to grab the hoody that $crim had lent me yesterday. I practically bumped into him as I reached the top of the stairs.

"Sorry" I tried to smile

"No I'm sorry" he tilted my chin up to look at him and kissed me lightly in the lips then jogged off down the stairs.

What the fuck was that

Was that supposed to be his I'm sorry for fucking a girl last night. He can't just come and kiss me all sexy and just think I'll forget that he fucked me off then fucked a girl after. Well it's not happening. I grab the hoody and bounce downstairs to find him and have a proper conversation with him.

I walk to the back where the firepit is lit and the girl is just about to swing her leg of $crims knee. His eye catches mine and he shouts my name. I shake my head and walk back into the house through the kitchen. I hear him scrambling to get through the people shouting my name. Everyone eyes me cautiously. He manages to catch up with me and grab my wrist.

"What" I snap

"It's not what it looks like"

"It looks like the girl you invited into your bed last night was about to straddle you and stick her tongue down your throat" I cross my arms across my chest.

"Well it is what it looks like but I promise I didnt have sex with her last night"

"I don't know if your promise is enough. I didn't come here to have my feelings fucked with" I shake my head at him and pull away.

I gather my stuff that I have with me and grab what I need. I call an Uber and grab my case from the hotel and make my way to the airport. I text Lexi to enjoy her time but I was catching a flight home to LA.

I'm sat in the airport lounge waiting for my flight which will take off in 2 hours when my phone won't stop going off. Both of them. My personal and work. I pull them out my backpack to try and figure what's happening.

Lexi and 4 other numbers have been trying to get hold if me.

"What is up?" I say as she answers

"Are you with $crim?" She sounds agitated

"Why the fuck would I be with him? I'm at the airport" I scoff

"He's gone AWOL. He found out you had left and was going back to LA and he flipped. He kicked most everyone out, he's trashed the place and said he was going to drag you back" I buried my head in my hands

"Well he didn't think of that when he was fucking about with that girl" I huff

"She only blew him. And I'm pretty sure she mentioned he said your name. But you'd have to ask her exactly what happened" Lexi sighs

"I don't want to see her again let alone speak to her" I pout

"We need to find him. Ruby's paranoid he's going to fall off the wagon and use because of this"

"Great now that's on me"

I stand up and grab my things. I head for the exit and I loose my signal. I shove my phone's back into my bags as I walk out into the humidity.