(ON HOLD) Tell Me When I'm Good Enough ($uicideboy$/$crim story)

Three

Amber

So I was dressed up to be the arm candy for this event. I really wasn't feeling the evening dress and heels, I just wanted some sweatpants and slippers if I was being honest. Colson had agreed to come to this before we started 'dating', which wasn't too long ago. We where both getting over other relationships so it was more a partnership of convenience. The problems with having a friend with benefits when your famous is that it's plastered all over the headlines. So it's easier to 'date' and just make sure you both know the deal and where it's going.

I had a fake smile plastered on my face as another nameless and faceless producer practically sucked Colson off. It was ridiculous. They where so far up his arse I'm suprised they could even breathe. I scanned the room trying to find someone a little less dull to speak to. That's when I saw $uicideboy$ and Pouya across the room. Im a fan, I was going to excuse myself to go over and say hello but I clocked $crim looking straight at me. I see him looking at me up and down, contemplating. He says my name and points over, Pouya looks over. I just watch them intrigued. He says something about coke. Is it that obvious? Well he should know the signs, he's sober now I think so he can probably spot it a mile off. I smirk to myself and turn as someone starts to talk me.

Just before we are due out to get changed I spot Colson chatting to $B. I overhear the saying they are going to Emo nite. I can't help but look at $crim while talking to them. Taking in his handsome face. He needs to stop covering it with those tattoos. I make a mental note to tell him sometime. I watch him as he blatantly checks me out. It takes alot for me not to mention it. There's something about him that puts me on edge, in a good way. Like I feel like ripping his clothes off right now, his stare is that intense.

We quickly got changed at the hotel and headed out to Emo nite. We got there as $B where performing. I rapped along but could tell $crim was looking over at me. He was messing up his lyrics. I tried to sit out of his peripheral just incase I was distracting him. I got chatting to Ruby's girlfriend, Shaina who also happened to be British. We chatted about home, realising we where practically from the same area and once the set had finished we wondered outside to join them for a smoke. I sit down next to Colson and start to chat away to Ruby. Finally $crim speaks up but I can tell he's nervous to speak to me. I like that, that I make him nervous. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to be offended that I don't look like a fan of theirs or if that supposed to be a compliment. I'll take it as the latter. Colson reminds me that we are due on in a few minutes so we head in.

I'm super aware of $crim watching me as I perform, especially as the first song I sing is about sex. I could feel myself getting turned on. His eyes where like blue flames dangerously flickering and they made my skin burn wherever they looked. I covered a few songs and couldn't stop glancing at $crim. I felt like he was about to pounce on me at any given moment. I've never had anyone look at me with so much hunger and lust in their eyes. It was intoxicating and intimidating at the same time. I did a cover of '11 minutes' with Yungblud which was very flirty. I'm sure at one point he grabbed my ass and $crim flared his nostrils. Was he being possessive and I wasn't even his? I couldn't help but smirk. I had pre arranged to sing 'crushcrushcrush - Paramore' it was just very adept. I did a couple more songs and came off hot and sweaty. I flung myself on Colson and Dom. Colson got a little touchy feely. I heard $crim walking off, I wanted to follow him but that was inappropriate and rude. I was here with Colson. As I lay there I was thinking about $crim and thinking what he would be like to date. He seems moody but I'm guessing I am too and I've got him on a disadvantage. I wonder what he's like in the bedroom. I bet he's quite dominant. I wouldn't mind that. I'm not into major BDSM or anything but I like it rough. I bet he would look hot choking me...

Right I need to stop I'm getting myself worked up about the guy I'm not going home with. Colson pulls me onto his lap like he can read that I'm getting horny or something.

"Let's go back to the hotel" that's all I needed. I need him to fuck $crim from my head tonight. Or I'll end up imagining it's $crim that's fucking me.  Either way...

I head round and say good bye to everyone. As I lean in to $crim I whisper in his ear

"Why don't you DM me and we can arrange me coming backstage to see you" I wink then walk away

We travel back to the hotel and I still can't shake $crim from my head. His eyes are burned into my memory forever. The way he looked at me like some animalistic need to touch me. I seriously would have let him. Infront of all those people. If he had just nodded I would have dropped to my knees. I'm not submissive in the slightest but I wanted to please him and have him please me.

I can tell that man will be my undoing