Okay, I'm Okay. [JJK]

o2

The Story of The Lover: PART II

I am not okay.

Jeon Jeongguk, can you still remember the first time we talked?

Current year, first week of school, I can recall how normal and boring that day started. Nothing new. Hana is going to be late again so I left her at the dormitory while she still brushes her teeth. After I arrived in school, I found myself putting my unnecessary belongings in my locker. I was minding my own business until I heard laughter at the distance. It's normal to be honest because what do you expect in a corridor full of students? Of course there would be sorts of noises.

But there's one specific voice that caught my attention. It's too gentle and sweet that I thought heard a song, but it was just someone's giggles. It sounded so beautiful that it made my head turn to the direction.

There I saw Ara standing beside the wall, chatting with her friends, enjoying each other's company.

Of course.

Ara is beautiful.

Hence, her laughter would sound beautiful too.

I turned around again, fixing the alignment of my books inside my locker before closing it. I stepped on my shoes and began to walk to our classroom, but my footsteps get slower and slower as my eyes goes back to her.

She's so pretty, even a girl like me can't help and be head over heels sometimes.

And she's kind too - they say.

I don't know. I never had a chance to talk to her. Who knows what she's hiding behind those sweet smiles?

She almost has it all though. Petite figure, small face, v-shaped jaw line, plump lips, cute doe-eyes, flawless skin— it's unfair! Why does she need to have it all—

"Oh my. I'm so sorry!" I suddenly heard a guy before me.

Before I knew it, I was sitting on the floor already, eyes squeezed shot in pain, holding onto my poor bum.

Nice.

The fact that I am on the floor didn't bother me at first, accidents can happen, and I admit I was at fault too because I wasn't really looking at my steps, but the books he was holding all crash landed on me. The said books brought pain to my head and shoulders before it sprawled all over the floor beside me. A combo attack.

So nice.

I looked up, trying to glare daggers at the suspect as I ooze the pain. But the sun shone brightly through the windows, it almost blinded me and I wasn't able to see his face. Is he an angel or something? What is this? 'Let there be light' extravaganza?

"I'm really sorry." The guy apologized once again, now with softer voice. He held out a hand for me to reach, helping me stand. His hand is soft too, but I'm still mad.

I fixed the wrinkles on my skirt as soon as I got up, before shooting him another glare.

But suddenly my eyes softened and my anger died out as soon as I finally saw the latter's face.

Jeon Jeongguk, it's you.

Am I tripping?

It was my very first time to see you standing right in front me. It was my first time to be this close to you. There's nothing much about that fact, but somehow it made me feel giddy. My cheeks heated up, and how I hope you wouldn't notice it.

Too bad, I have a crush on you.

"It's okay." My heart beats more rapidly once I realized that you're still holding onto my hand. "U-uhm." What the heck, Hyunji? What is that stuttering for?

You shyly chortled before letting my hand go. "Sorry, are you hurt?"

"No, I'm fine." I smiled back, softly. Of course I have to be soft and cute in front of you, but really, deep inside I wanted to scream and let out these cheeky feelings.

Well, who wouldn't when you have a school heartthrob standing in front of you?

Anyway.

Be thankful that you're my crush, otherwise you might end up having a black eye. My body is in pain right now, and it's because of you, you know?

You huffed out in relief. "Good to know." You smiled again before kneeling down to pick those - freaking - books.

Then when you got up, you got so close to my face, so close, I was able to smell your cologne much stronger than before. Ugh! My heart. I don't know, maybe it's just me, but I think we had this staring contest that lasted for few seconds before you bid your farewell. "I have to go now." Look at that bunny teeth. Your smile was the most beautiful thing I saw throughout the day.

"Sure." All I could utter as I smiled back.

The next thing I knew you left me there, standing at the center of the corridor, completely dazed. I had to mentally slap myself to wake up. "I--"

I bit my lips, forcing back the smile that creeping on my lips, but then my eyes lost its track and landed on Ara again.

And she's not laughing anymore.

And she seemed pissed.

I am not okay.