Inciting Incident (Harry Styles)

Chapter 15

And I'm scared of being alone
I can't seem to breathe when I am lost
In this dream I need you to hold me

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The first thing I did after getting up from the floor once Callum left was pull the bolt across the door. There was no way I am going to be lazy enough to put my life in danger again, whether it's someone I know or not.

Shock just completely numbed me, at this point in time I cannot feel anything, not that I want to. There's a part of me that doesn't want the shock to wear off due to the fear of how painful the bruising will be not to mention the pain in my chest.

I went to bed after composing myself and wrapped myself in like a cocoon. It's comforting feeling something around you, especially after what has just happened. I look at my phone and see that it's 3 am my fingers hover to attempt to ring Gemma, the only person who would be able to calm me at these times, but I know that at this time it's not fair to ring her about my problems.

I could hardly sleep all night, my head was throbbing constantly and I felt absolutely broken- More broken than I have ever felt in my life. The few hours that I did manage to have was blissful, for a few hours I forgot the pain, physically and emotionally but then I was slap banged into reality again.

I've always known Callum had a temper, but I would have never thought that he would lay a finger on me. How naive was I?

Looking back on our relationship, I completely ignored the signs.

Constantly putting me down, no matter what I wore he either wouldn't compliment me or saying how I need to lose weight.

Refusing to communicate, last night was a plain giveaway. Wouldn't let me get a word in edgeways and when I did he completely ignored me. This can go under unreasonable jealousy as well because nothing fucking happened!

Constantly calling and texting when I'm not with him. All the time it's suffocating.

Early the next morning when I got fed up of not being able to sleep, I called my mum, she has always been an early riser. I just need someone to talk to, and somewhere to stay. I just don't want to be on my own at the moment. I grabbed my phone from the bedside table and sat up in bed, I just don't feel safe here anymore.

When the ringing stopped, my mum's voice came through. "Hello?"

"Hey mum, um.. are you busy?" I asked, already feeling the tears welling up in my eyes. I just need my mum to just hug me and tell me everything's okay. She hummed in response which made me continue. "Callum came home last night drunk, and he got the wrong idea of me hanging out with a male friend, and.." I paused, voice is wobbling as I spoke.

"Male friend? Did you sleep with him?!" My mum accused as I took a deep breath to remain calm. "I swear to god that if you've done anything to hurt that poor man," my mum started ranting before I cut her off.

"Mum, you've got to remember that I'm your daughter, not Callum. Also to answer your question, no, I didn't sleep with my male friend." I snapped, how could she even think that?

My mum has always loved Callum, from the moment she met him. Which was actually before I did, my mum and her friend set us up. Which I thought was amazing because I thought he was someone who I would've got married too and I knew she would approve seeing as though she was the person who put us together in the first place.

So it just annoys me how when I need to vent when we had an argument or something she would always side with him. Which looking back on that thought now, I shouldn't have called her.