Spot's POV
Why does he make me feel like that!? No one's EVER made me feel like that! He's so fucking cute it makes me so fucking mad! I hate myself for sayin' those harsh things to him! I'm so hard on him!
Why can't it be simple!? My whole life I've never once thought about liking no one. It seemed too...gross and sappy to me. The day I found him on the streets passed out, I don't know why it scared me so bad!
I knew he existed an I knew him since we was about ten. Race had been a Manhattan Newsie for just over two years. One of the best sellers I ever seen! He's always loved the sheepshead races! That's how he got his name. He's always been such an idiot, gamblin' with anyone he sees.
He tries to act tough on the outside, it works, but I can see right through him. He ain't as tough and fearless as he seems. I've had to carry him back to Manhattan bout' a hundred times! One time when I was carryin' him back I heard him wince like he was hurt or somethin', so I stopped and looked down.
He looked like I'd just stabbed him or somethin'! I set him down on the sidewalk since there wasn't anyone around. He still looked like he was he was is the worst pain anyone could be in! I ran my fingers through his blonde curls and let my hand rest there for a while. His face calmed right down! Why does he have to do that!?
Why does he have to make me feel weak!? I ain't no pansy, but he makes me feel like one! Dammit, that hair! His perfect blonde curls make me feel so helpless and it's annoyin'! God why does he have to smile like that?
I'm so stupid for feelin' this! If anyone finds out about this I'm screwed! I'm the fucking King of Brooklyn for gods sake! I hate him! He can't be doin' this! I ain't givin' in to his perfect blue eyes that make me feel like I ain't got nothin' to me, or to his soft messy hair, or his smile that makes me go numb...
Why am I doin' this to myself!? There's nothin' I can do but sit here knowin' he doesn't feel the same bout' me.
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In the Stars ( A Sprace fan fiction)
Fanfiction"In the Stars" is a Sprace (Spot and Race) fan fiction that takes place a few months after the Newsies strike of 1899. All of the Newsies are from the broadway version. There will be swearing!!! I didn't put trigger warnings for that and I'm sorry!
