In the Stars ( A Sprace fan fiction)

Chapter 16: Paranoid

Spot's POV

I hate havin to leave him. It's our first day together and we can't even spend it together. It's all my damn fault too! I got all worked up and made him baby me! I HATE when people feel like they gotta baby me! I made us spend the whole day sleepin! We shoulda done something, anything!

Race was really good at helpin me though. I was a fuckin wreck but he didn't care! I've never had anyone care about me before! I'm happy I do now. Hot Shot's my friend and knows a lot but he's never really cared about me.

         It doesn't matter though. I got Race. I got his blond curls, his perfect blue eyes, his freckles, his perfect smile, and his love. Ugh I sound like a sap! I'm not lyin, but I sound stupid. I never thought I would be the one sayin this stuff. Dammit now I see where Romeo's commin from with his romance crap.

           I don't like not being with Race. It seems weird walkin on the bridge alone now. He was so cute cuddling into me. I don't get how he was so cold! He was freezing and it's only about fifty two degrees. That's normal for New York! Hell, at this time of year that's hot! Maybe he just gets cold easy?

          Ugh this walk is takin forever with him not here! I'm only half way across and I miss Race a lot! Stupid rich assholes keep starin at me. I wanna tell them all ta fuck off. I'm just tryin ta get back to Brooklyn! Why can't I do that without people bein assholes!? Speakin of, I gotta ask what was wrong with Mr.Carnes. He was starin at my boyfriend all weird and I ain't gonna let that slide!

         I wanna get back faster and I'm almost at the end so I'm runnin now. I wanna see what he has to say for makin Race feel scared. I'm almost at the house and my lungs are hurtin now, I don't care. I open the door, there he is, sittin in the living room like nothin happened!

        "Oh Spot! Your back," what the fuck!

        "Why were you starin at my...friend like that," he looks confused but he finally gets it.

        "Oh that blond boy..." Race was right! He is bein creepy! "I would stay away from him if I were you," as if!

        "Why," he's lookin more irritated and it's fuckin terrifying! He's walkin over to me! Shit he's a fuckin serial killer! He's gonna kill me! I knew it! I knew he was too sweet!

        "Just stay away from him if you know what's good for you...ok?" FUCK THAT! I'm walkin up to the attic to get my stuff! I'm blowin this place! I ain't gonna stay in the same place as a fuckin psycho!...I don't have anything, I'm a dumbass. Well I guess that makes it easier to leave! I go back down the stairs and he's standin in the doorway of the kitchen. "Where are you going dinners almost ready," He's actin like he didn't just say that scary shit! I gotta make somethin up!

         "I uh- the others need me back in the lodgin house, thanks for lettin me stay here for a while though," not bad. I go to open the door.

         "Oh, ok then. Well you're welcome to come back anytime," Yeah...no. I nod though and walk out. It's a little darker out and I'm tryin to get to the lodgin house as fast as I can. I don't like this feelin, it feels like someone's watchin me! I ain't gonna look back. I'm pickin up my pace and I can hear whoever's behind me do the same. Shit I'm gonna die!

         I'm runnin now! I don't care if they know I hear them I don't wanna die! I can't die on Race! I'm sprintin, every muscle's workin to get me back to the lodgin house! I can see it! Thank you god! I open the door and slam it shut! I lock it just in time! There's a person tryin to get in! I look through the peephole. There are the three guys! Fuck! All the windows are locked and I've never been so greatful for that! I run up the stairs and the guys are all in the bedroom.

           "Hey dumbasses!" I yell and they all look at me "The killers are outside, we gotta keep kinda quiet. The windows and doors are locked so we should be fine," the younger kids look scared but some of the older guys are tellin them that we's gonna be fine.

        I go to my separate room that the guys gave me and lay down on my bed. I don't like it without Race. I wanna hold him but I can't! Why's he gotta live in Manhattan!? It's too far away for me! I know it's only an hour away but I still hate it. I don't like him livin over there especially with those guys who tried to kidnap him! With me not there, they could take him away from me or hurt him!

          I don't wanna think about that! It's so hard not to think about that stuff though! I sound like a stupid overprotective mother but I guess now I get what they mean when they don't want their kid wanderin off without them. Race isn't my kid but he's my life! He's my love and my perfect, beautiful boyfriend, and I wanna protect him! I didn't know I could get so attached and fall in love this fast!

          I hated how Mr.Carnes looked at him! He's got no right to stare him down like that! I don't like how that old weirdo was actin. Somethings wrong about him and I'm scared he's gonna do something! Ugh I hate my brain! It won't shut up with all the bad stuff!

        I just wanna think of the good things that happened with Race but it just makes me miss him! I miss his eyes and his soft hair, the way he blushes so obviously but still tries to hide it, the way he hugged tighter and buried his head into my chest whenever  there was thunder, the way he kissed me.

         My eyes shut and I'm finally tired. I didn't think I would fall asleep tonight.