dedicated to: Angel Zaehrovic
My tears began to roll down on my cheeks again as I read the old conversation we had.
We were so sweet before with the words 'I love you' and hearts emoticons
Isang mapait na ngiti ang sumilay sa aking mga labi.
Alas dose na ng hatinggabi ngunit ni senyales ng antok ay tila ayaw sumanib sa akin
I put my hand on my mouth to hide the hurtful sobs that keeps on pushing me to free them
Humiga ako at ipinikit ang mga mata habang dinadama ang sarili na hanggang ngayon ay ramdam ang sakit sa kaibuturan ng puso
My body becomes heavy
The eye that still has sign of crying began to close
Suddenly I felt my body relaxing against the soft bed and caring comforter
I'm too tired to forcedly open my eyes
So I let myself be drown by darkness for now
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I opened the puffy eyes as the black color envelop me
I turned on the light switch beside me and look at the small alarm clock placed above my study table
It's still 12:30 in the midnight
Imbes na muling humiga sa malambot na kama na tila hinihila ako't ibinubulong na muling umidlip ay hindi ko nagawa
I got out from my bed, put on my jacket and wear the pink soft slippers on the floor
Bago umalis ay napasadahan ng aking paningin ang sarili
I look like a mess
Kumunot ang noo ko at inayos ang magulong buhok while I wiped the dries tears covering my eyes
Ang hood ng jacket na suot ay ipinantaklob na lamang sa ulo upang hindi gaanong mahalata ang mamaga-magang mata
It is still dark and the lamp lights on the street are the only thing that gives bright to the lonely background.
I walk outside
Not minding the slippers's noise due to the wet ground cause by the rain
Inabala ko ang sarili sa panonood ng aking mga yapak at ipinagsawalang isip na lamang ang nangyari kanina
I pity myself for being too fragile
But I'm also thanking myself for being this strong...
To be be able to surpass the heartache he caused.
Patuloy lamang akong naglalakad na tila walang buhay sa madilim na daan.
But I startled when someone bumped into me
I was about to say sorry but stopped when I realize who this man is
I look away and just put my hand inside the jackets to make it feel warmed
His eyes look shock
His mouth opened
But it only last for some seconds and the normal expression came back on his face as he said the word sorry
Umalis ito na ang salitang patawad lamang ang sinabi
He didn't even tell me why he ended it
I sniff and tears formed in my eyes again
It is already 12:51
And I thought my feelings were gone
But it was what I thought...
Under the shining moon,
Is where I realized it is still You.
