Broken (Nash Grier and Cameron Dallas)

Chapter 32

Nicole's Pov
*2 weeks after the incident...

I feel so useless and nothing's making me feel any better. Its like every time me and Nash get back together he cheats on me again. I feel like there's no way of being in a good relationship with him. One minute I'm so happy and then everything is torn apart with him cheating on me.

He's called to many times to count. If he truly wanted to be with me then he wouldn't of cheated on me...again. Cameron and the rest of the guys have tried to comfort me but I just sit here and cry.

They tell me he's worse and I don't understand why. He cheated on me and he's the one crying. I haven't gotten out of bed to do anything besides shower and try to eat. Every time I ate something I thought of what I saw when I walked into his room. I threw up after every bite I took. I've lost 10 pounds.

I hate this feeling of being incapable of living. Its like my body is here on earth but my soul is dead. I feel like a walking dead person. I'm drained and I have no energy left.

My life has turned to complete shit all over again. It's all because of one boy. I've been sitting on my bed all day staring out into the rain pouring down in LA. It doesn't rain often but I like when it does.

My peaceful thoughts were interrupted my my door bell being rung. I slowly get up and walk to the door. I slowly open it and as soon as I do my eyes fill with tears.

"Nash why are you here?" I ask in a shaky voice.

"Nicole I miss you I can't eat I can't..."

" You can't eat I've barely eaten anything in the past two weeks. And I've heard this whole speech before. Your gonna say I made a mistake I was so stupid, your the only girl I love. I can't do this anymore."

"No Nicole you don't understand..."

"I don't understand! I understand that you were screwing another girl after you begged to get back together. I understand that I am completely broken and I understand that I hate you so much."

"You don't hate me babe please don't say that."

"Shut up you don't know what I'm feeling. I hate how I love you so fucking much. I hate how I feel like this. I hate how I can never be truly happy. And I hate how you aren't the guy I fell in love with."

"I'm the same guy..."

"No you're not Nash you've changed. You don't love me anymore and I can see it in your eyes. We just can't be together anymore. As much as it hurts me because I love you so much I know it's for the best. I love you Nash."

With that I shut the door slowly as his face slowly disappeared. Tears were streaming down his face. After I shut the door I heard him slide down the door and sit down. He was crying even louder now.

It broke my heart. I began to think about things. Cameron told me he kicked Nash out of the apartment until he changed. I contemplated on whether or not to let him in. I walked to the door an I knew I was going to regret this.

I opened the door slowly and he was still sitting there.

"Nash come in..."

He got up but hid his face.

"I'm going to let you stay here for the night because I know cameron kicked you out of the apartment."

He just nodded. I sat on the couch next to him I tried to go near him but he backed away.

"Nash please"

He came closer. I put my hand under his chin and lifted his face to meet mine. I looked into those once bright blue eyes that were now filled with tears. I wiped his tears away.

"Please don't cry"

I hugged him and I felt complete again but I knew I had to control my self.

"You can sleep on the couch tonight."
I got him blankets and then tried to fall asleep. I couldn't sleep and clearly he couldn't either. I heard my bedroom door open and he appeared.

"Can't sleep either"i said

I motioned him to come into bed with me. He came next to me and wrapped his arms around my waist. I knew I would probably regret this.

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A/N- I'm sorry I haven't updated. I've been very depressed and not really happy. I just wasn't motivated to update. I cut again... I thought I should tell you why I haven't been updating.