Broken (Nash Grier and Cameron Dallas)

Chapter 6

Nicole's pov

I sat on the bed while Nash was in the bathroom. Then, Taylor came over to me and to be honest he is cute, but Nash is hotter.

"Do you know your beautiful?" He whispered then cupped my cheeks and kissed me. I immediately pushed him off and slapped him.

"What the fuck Taylor!!" I heard a voice yell it was Nash.

"Sorry bro she is just so hot, I promise I won't do it again." I nodded and made my way to the bathroom.

I stripped off my clothes and took a shower. I wrapped the towel around me and dryed myself. I brushed my teeth and hair, than put on Nash's sweatpants and t-shirt. I walked out of the bathroom while putting my hair into a messy bun. I jumped into bed and cuddled up to Nash and instantly fell asleep.

*Next day at Magcon*

I woke up at 7:30 and started getting ready for Magcon at 9:00. First I brushed my teeth then, I sat infront of the mirror and began my makeup. I put on concelaer, powder, winged eyeliner, mascara, and a red matte lip stain.(so I could kiss Nash) I brought my clothes into the bathroom and began to get dressed. My outfit consisted of high wasted distressed short. white crop top, brandy melville beige cardigan, and my marroon vans.

I walked over to Nash and got him to finally wake up. He sat up and stared at
Me.

"What? do I not look okay?"

"No... I mean you just look so beautiful."

"Aw thanks babe!"
I was 8:30 and we needed to leave for magcon.

We all went into the limo and began the drive to Magcon.

*10 minutes later*

We finally arrived at the magcon event and it was packed with a bunch if screaming fans. I was incredibly scared what if they didn't like me?

"They will love you don't worry" nash said while intertwining our finger.

During the magcon event I was backstage and I couldn't wait to see nash. I had to go to the bathroom so I left backstage. After the search for the bathroom I finally found it. I did my business and went back to where I was before.

I opened the door and my jaw dropped to the floor. Nash was making out with a girl and he was feeling her up.

"How could you!"

He turned and looked at me wide eyed. Before he got the chance to respond I ran out of the building and took a taxi back to the hotel. I grabbed my makeup bag which had a blade in it. I took my cardigan off and began to slide the across my wrists.

This is for being ugly and worthless

'Cut'

This is for not being good enough

'Cut'

I continually kept cutting my wrists It felt so good. But, it wasn't enough I wanted to die. I remembered my pills for my anxiety attacks I brought. I began to write a note to all the boys and it read:

Dear boys,

I love you all like my family and I hope you will understand. I can't handle this anymore and it's just better if I die. Hayes tell my mother and father I love them and This needed to happen. Nash don't blame this all on yourself. It's not your fault. I will love you always ❤️. Boys I love you all and I will see you in heaven.

Love,
Nicole ❤️

A few tears dripped on to the letter. I sat on the bed and took 30 pills. I closed my eyes and hoped to never wake up again. I heard people rush into the door and scream.

"Nicole please don't die."

"Call 911"

"She's still breathing!"

I opened my eyes once more to see nash and the boys hovering over me.

"I...love... you...all."

And with those words I fell into what seemed a deep sleep.
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Hey everyone this chapter was really hard to write. But if any of you self harm feel free to come and talk to me.

Okay on to a more positive note I will try and update more often but it's hard with softball and school. And don't worry this is no where near the end of the book.

~Nicole ❤️😘