{kenzies pov}
when i saw ashton beat up toby, i freaked out. maybe he could do that to me.. but then again, he defended me. im just so confused and i dont know what to do. this is all going too fast. maybe i should just try and get to know him? i dont know. he seems okay.. but toby used to seem okay. now hes just a guy filled with hatred and lust.
i hesitate on opening the door to see if ashton is still there, but when i look out the window, hes gone. so is toby. i guess they both left.. i think i should go rest for a while. its been a rough couple of hours.
i walk up to my room and lay on my bed. after ten minutes of not being able to sleep, i hear my phone go off. i check my text messages. two new messages from an unknown number.
UNKNOWN: hey its ash!
Ash: im so sorry about what just happened.. i honestly didnt mean to scare you.. text me back when you can. xx - ash.
sigh. he seems so caring. but i dont want to let my guard down. i dont want to be broken again. especially from ashton. i dont even know why.
instead of ignoring him, i text him back.
me: hi.. i guess i just got frightened. its alright tho. dont worry about it.
.. he instantly texted back.
Ash: you sure? i mean, i did go pretty rough on him. but he did hurt you, too. and thats unacceptable. ive already made it my priority to fix you. and im not gonna let any boy/girl/guy hurt you.
thats when i felt the tears coming on. nobody, besides tori, has ever said that to me before. im taken back. but im so scared. i just need to give it time.
me: thank you, ash. it means a lot. honestly, it really does. im just gonna take some time alone for a while. ill text you later.
ash: okay, beautiful. take your time. ill always be here if you need me.
me: okay.
i really need to think about this. i mean, it feels like hes making me take down all these boundaries that ive set up, but he doesnt even know about it. for almost all my life, ive been scared to get attached to people. then again, i just want someone to care for me and love me for who i am. i want to be held and be told that everything is gonna be alright. i want to be me. i want to be happy.
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