Pretty Rings • Liskook

25

Jennie

I can't believe this, is this really happening. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

"You don't understand!"

"You were with another man!"

"Can't you see that you hurt me, Jennie? I don't have time for this, I have a career, and a group to work with."

"You know what? Just leave, then!  It's not like I ever needed you anyway."

I opened my eyes fast, I sit on my bed, I spot my brown bear plushie.

"WHAT are you googling at?"

"Awww it's just so cute I could just jabdjdgeudjdbfk!"

"do you want it?"

"Hm?"

"I said do you want it?"

"I course I do! But you will have to win that archery game. I'm sorry, I don't want it anymore."

"Come, I'm winning that game."

I jump up, grab the bear and stuff it viciously into my mini trash bin.

"I hate you..." I gripped the bedsheets as I sat back down on my bed. I look up at my white ceiling.

Pictures of him flashed in my mind, of today, of our past, and of the award shows. He was right, he didn't need me, he's so famous now.

But why do I still hope he thinks of me?

Why do I still hope he loves me?

My stomach churned in a bad way and I felt sadness and frustration fall over me.

"But why do I still love you the same as I did before?"

Tears fell from my eyes slowly.

"Unnie?" Lisa asked me,

"Unnie... what do you have to tell us?" Chae walked up to me, She wrapped her arms around me, like she would always do, if someone was having a hard time. I looked down. Jisoo put her hand on my chin and made me look at her.

"Something happened. You look downright depressed, tell me, child, what is concerning you?" She smiled at me, I knew she joked to cheer me up, so I held her hands and shook my head.

"Nothing wrong... Stop worrying!" I gave them a big grin. They all frowned back at me.

"Unnie... Is this about Yoongi Sumbaenim?" Chae frowned at me.

They all know I'm lying now.

I look up at Rosie and Jisoo. They know about what happened too. Great. 

So much for making our past a secret.

I felt Chu's hand cover my shoulder, I looked up at her.

"We've known each other for years, Jennie. We trust you with our lives. We know you trust us too. You can tell us wherever it is that is bothering you, it'll make you feel better." Chu smiled at me. I suddenly felt bad for not telling the girls about this. I take a deep breath,

"I'm sorry, I thought this would have bothered out comebacks and I didn't want to worry you too..." I looked up at them.

"To hell with worrying us, that's what you're doing right now unnie!" Lisa said, sitting everyone down on my bed. But got scolded along the way for using a bad word.

I smiled at her and nodded, they all got ready to listen to my story,

"This happened a pretty long time ago, before our debut,  a year before our debut, actually." I paused, thinking for the right words. "I had fallen for Yoongi at first sight, he was so good at everything, we were childhood friends too. I wanted to tell him my feelings before the new year ended, so I... told him I liked him." I looked down, memories were flooding into my head.