Cessation

𝐅𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐇𝐢𝐦

Morning time; Cheryl's Point Of View

Dana stared at me as she stood on the edge of my bed. Standing in front of her, I helped her put her shirt on and that would complete getting her dressed for the morning.

It was kinda early and so, Dana wasn't really talking. Usually, she would still be asleep during this time but Tony wanted her to be up bright and early.

I really didn't want her to leave me but we made yet another deal. So, after today- I'll get a chance to get her back and this time, I'm holding Tony to his word.

He won't be able to change his promise with me because I'm tired of it. I deserve the equivalent amount of time that he has with our kids too.

Besides, I'm their mother and they should spend time with me as well. Because what kid wouldn't want to see both of their parents?

"You look sad..." Dana pointed out to me.

I looked at her, put on a smile and shook my head. "No, Mommy's not sad. I'm okay..." I assured her.

She then reached over and placed her hand on the side of my face. "Okay," she said sweetly.

Feeling her warm, little hand on the side of my face- I smiled for real this time.

She didn't know that the small and big things she does- warms my entire heart.

"Am I leaving now?" Dana asked me and she took her hand away from my cheek. I nodded my head and continued to make sure she looked neat. "Where am I going now?" She asked even more.

"Well, baby. Your Grandma wants to see you. So, you're gonna go over her house today," I told her as I stopped what I was doing and looked at her. "I'll see you tomorrow though, okay?" I said as I put a smile on for her.

"But I wanna stay with you," she said both sleepily and with such sadness.

I nodded my head. "I know, baby girl. I want you to stay with me too but I'll see you tomorrow. I promise that..." I said with assurance. I wanted her to know that I meant that because I do.

No matter what, I'm gonna see her tomorrow.

"I don't wanna go, Mommy!" Dana quickly told me as didn't hesitate to start crying in an instant. Her being sleepy didn't help with any of this either because the wining is prone to become easy for her during this time.

"Shhhh. I know, I know..." I said as I pulled her into me and hugged her. As she cried into me, I knew that this torn house has caused Dana to feel sad at times. When she's with one of us, she wants the other. When she goes with the other, she wants the other one of us again. Going back and forth is probably a heartbreaker for her at times and I understand that.

Yet, this is what I was afraid of. I was afraid of the hurt my children would feel because of their parents not being together under one roof. But...I have to learn how to deal with it and assure them that everything is okay either way.

"You know that I always, always miss you so, so much, right? And that I love you far beyond the stars and the moon. I love you, baby and I'll see you soon. When Mommy promises you something, always know that I will keep that promise as if my life depended on it. So, don't cry...please," I said as I continued to hold her.