Running Under the City Lights | Remorse Series #1 [ COMPLETED ]

~ 11 ~

Knowing that I was a human being, I didn't expect that I could feel this kind of pain. It was something that can torture both your heart and mind, it just makes you want to shut your tore heart. Not wanting to open it because of the fear of being shattered again.

I do know that not all men are the same, and that's exactly what I'm afraid of. All of them are not the same, which means some may prove to you that they genuinely love you, and some may bring another kind of pain.

Fooling someone that you love them is fucking torture, I'll not buy if they said that they didn't mean to cheat.

Fuck that.

Anyone can cheat, man or woman, they can cheat if the fucking temptations got to them. If they couldn't get a hold of themselves, then wish your heart a good luck. The pain you'll undergo is fucking unbearable.

I can feel my knees quivering, it wanted to kneel on the ground because it can't support my body any longer. My body felt so heavy as if was something is pulling me to the ground.

"Hon, sino iyon?" Kirsten asked coming from the kitchen.

My eyes stayed at Justin, his eyes were full of guilt. A part of me wanted to slap him and tell him that 'Yes. You should be guilty, asshole.' but another part of me just wanted to ask 'why?'.

Ask why did he do it. If he just wanted to leave then why didn't he? All I needed was a goodbye! Sure I would cry and beg for him to stay if he did that but I know that I don't have a choice so I'll let him be.

But cheating? Are you kidding me?

I bit my lower lip when I felt the tears escaped my eyes and dripped down to my cheeks. Justin was about to hold my arm but I shoved his hand before he could even touch me. I glared at him even though the tears are still dripping down.

"Wasn't I enough, Justin?" I whispered. His eyes were screaming 'sorry'. I waited for an answer but that was a stupid idea, I'll bet a million dollars that he will not answer my question.

Bigla ko na lamang naalala ang Instagram story ni Max, may picture silang tatlo at my naka caption na "At the OB". Noong una ay hindi ko alam kung si Kirsten ba ang dahilan kung bakit sila nasa OB kahapon ng gabi, pero ayokong lumipas pa ang ibang araw na puro pag dududa kay Justin.

Mahal na mahal ko si Justin kaya kahit kailan hindi ako nagduda sakaniya, pero dahil sa nakita ko ngayon,

tuluyan na akong nawalan ng tiwala sakaniya.

I walked away from that damn unit, ayokong mag tagal pa malapit sa unit ni Kirsten dahil baka kung anong masabi kong masasakit na salita. I can hear Justin calling me from behind but I didn't glance at him even for a second.

The elevator closed immediately so I reached the parking lot of the condo right away. I unlocked my car and sat on the driver's seat. I started the engine and drove away, tears surfaced my face, and my hands grasped the wheel tightly.

As I drive, I started to ask myself.. was I worth it?

For how long did Justin and Kirsten was doing this?

For how long did they kept it from me?

How can the both of them do this to me?

Justin was my boyfriend, and Kirsten.. she's one of my closest friend.

I screamed in the car as I continued to drive back to the house, I punched the wheel over and over until I can feel my hand getting numb.

Lumabas ako kaagad ng kotse nang makarating ako sa bahay. Padabog ko na isinara ang pintuan ng kotse at tuloy tuloy na naglakad papasok ng bahay, sinalubong ako ng mga kasambahay pero napilitan na lamang akong ngitian sila dahil gusto ko na lamang mag wala.