Running Under the City Lights | Remorse Series #1 [ COMPLETED ]

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"Oh come on, Fiona. How can you even make sure of that?" I denied. Well, I'm not denying that Cairo's been protective lately, lagi niya akong kinakamusta, tinatanong kung may gumugulo ba sa isip ko.

Lagi ko na lang sinasabi na wala kahit minsan pa ay mayro'n naman talaga. Ayoko lang na mag salita dahil mukhang lagi siyang pagod.

"I just know." she simply answered, after a while, the lid of my eyes started to get heavy. It was obviously a sign that I'm getting sleepy. I stood up and took my towel first from the guest room before going the bathroom to take a bath.

I took a shower, while taking a shower, I would always hum some songs that would get buried deep in my mind. Mostly some old songs, or maybe some 'not that old' songs just to help me clear my mind.

Every time that I would sing in the shower, it would always clear my mind, forget all the negativity, make me comfortable because I'm all alone and no one will judge me by what I'm doing or what I'm singing.

I just feel free.

No chains.

No dominance from other people.

"I'm waking up my mind, I just try to kill the silence.."

"I'm ripping off the blinds I'm just trying to let some light in.."

Music is always present during the good and bad days.

"I've been on the road, I've been missing home,"

"See it on my phone that the world back there keeps spinning 'round without me.."

"I'm waking up my mind, I'm ripping of the blinds."

"Oh I.. try to be happy but it's hard sometimes."

"But life.. just seems to happen right before my eyes."

"'Cause I feel like I'm not there, 'cause my head is up somewhere,"

"Far away from all for friends, I just want that back again.."

I went back to the guestroom after I took a shower, Fiona was still watching a movie so I didn't try to bother her any further. I put on my pajamas and threw myself in bed, it felt like my body was lying on top of the clouds.

How can I even get through this? Is there any way? Haha, who am I kidding? Of course there is! I just don't know where and when to start bracing myself. I'm too torn apart to even help myself stand up and fix myself.

Morning came and I woke up early because I dove off to sleep last night immediately when I was lost in the sea of my own thoughts. Fiona's fridge was empty so I had to go down the convenience store and buy some food for breakfast.

I just took some cup noodles for me, then I took some meal for Fiona. Sometimes she eats a lot on breakfast and complains if she's not full yet. I didn't want to hear her high pitched voice asking for more food that's why I took a meal for her.

Someone bumped into me, I looked at the person and was about to ask for an apology but the familiarity was on top of my mind.

"Kuyang dj?" hindi ako nagkakamali, kahit isang buwan na 'yung lumipas hindi ko pwedeng makalimutan 'yung mukha niya.

"Oh? Ma'am!" nakangiting banggit niya, hawak hawak niya ang isang basket na punong puno ng mga chips pati maraming pagkain, kasama na doon ang cup noodles pati ang mga meal na nasa loob ng isang karton na box na ino-offer ng convenience store na ito.