Lucky Little Me (New just my luck book 2)

Chapter 10

I held the phone to my ear and listened for the rings. "Mari, thank god." I heard Grey sigh in relief as he answered the phone. I felt tears rush to my eyes just hearing his voice. I wasn't sure when I had become to emotional but i seemed like I cried a lot now.

"hey." I gasped, holding my hand over my mouth. I don't think i relived how much I missed him until now.

"Are you crying, Mari what's wrong." Grey's voice filled with worry again. I wiped tears from my eyes and shook my head, knowing he couldn't see me.

"I'm fine, its fine everything's okay." I assure him. I took a deep breathe before trying to speak again. "Its- I'm okay. I just miss you, I don't think I realized how much until now."

"Mari, about last night-" i cut him off from trying to apologize.

"no grey please don't. I was drunk, beyond drunk. I know she was just someone you work with. I know you would never do that to me. I was just overthinking everything, i promise I'm not that insecure."  I sighed, letting everything out in one breathe. "I love you, and I miss you, and I promise things will be better when you get home."

I heard him chuckle lightly on the other end of the phone. "Amara, I don't care about literally anything as much as I care about you. I want you to do what works for you, and if you want time to deal with that than I will give you time."  Was he suggesting a break? Did he think that because I wanted to be alone so much the past week was because of him. "I can stay-"

"no, no no. Please." I cut him off. "Please come home. I don't want space I don't want time. I want you, all of you. Please come home."

He didn't say anything for a second, and then i heard him breathe in, almost like he was crying. it broke my heart to hear him cry, it was single handedly the one thing that could take me down. "You have no idea, how nice it is to hear you say that."

I felt myself let breath go that I didn't know I was holding. "I'm sorry, for everything. I'm, Im going to see someone. To talk to someone about it. figure out what is wrong with me." I mumbled, pulling my legs in front of me and rolling into a ball on the couch.

"You're going to see a therapist?" Grey asked, and I couldn't read from his tone, if he was startled or relieved.

'Yeah, why, is that bad?"

"of course not." I heard him chuckle. "Amara I saw a therapist for the first two yeas after my father died. I still go every once in a while. Its easy talking about your feelings to someone that you know you cant hurt with the way you feel." that made sense. I nodded, pressing my lips together slightly. He wasn't going to think i was crazy for talking to someone.

"okay. When are you coming home?" I asked, breathing slowly, trying to calm myself down from crying hysterically.

"As soon as I can. I'm hoping to catch a flight out Monday night but if not there's on at five am Tuesday morning."

"okay." I sighed again. "I love you."

"I love you too. What else are you doing today?"

"I'm going to get dressed in my own clothes and then go over to Delta's."

"Who's clothes are you wearing?" Grey asked, it was as if I could feel him smirking through the phone. I let out a small laugh and rolled my eyes.

"laken's."

"Wow, not what I was hoping for," He huffed out as I laughed.

"Didn't have a lot of options this morning. I was at his house." I heard him sigh as I got off the couch and wandered into the closet to change out my the sweatpants and baggy shirt.

"Well, I will let you change and I need to get back to work. I will call you tomorrow okay?" He hummed into the phone.

"Sounds good. talk tomorrow." I said hitting end. I finished changing my outfit and glanced over myself a few times in the mirror before sighing and pulling my eyes down.

You could tell that I was crying, and I needed to find a way to cover that up. So I took the time to blow dry my hair and actually do my makeup so i didn't look like a homeless person on crack.

this was as good at it was going to get for now. I pulled out my cell and called Seth, hoping he was done and I could catch a ride from him. He responded with an ETA to pick me up.

I quickly shot a text to Jarak letting him know that I was coming over to talk to Delta, and to not tell her so she didn't leave. I was worried once she heard I was coming over to talk she would find some errands to take off on. She was going to talk to me, I knew what she was going through best and if anyone could help her with her feelings it was me.

Jarak expounded with an okay and a question mark, but he didn't need to know anything else. I wasn't sure if Delta was still pregnant or what she was feeling about all of this but I was being left out of the loop and I really didn't like that.

Seth texted me to come downstairs and to make sure I locked up. As I was making sure I locked the door behind me my phone began buzzing.

Dakota's name flashed across the screen but I ignored it, not forgetting her pushing information out of me the other day. I didn't feel like dealing with her clingy ness today, i had other friends to focus on.

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I actually have a plan for this book now instead of just aimlessly writing so I should actually be updating it now.