"So, he wants to move to L.A to start another branch but you don't want to go?" My therapist asked, leaning back in her chair as she did. We had spent he majority of this session talking about how numb I had felt the last few days.
She explained that when the body gets to overwhelmed it tends to shut down, its the body's natural reaction to too much stress. She explained that it was going to be fine I just needed to work out the problem I was having, which is what led us here.
"Yeah. I think I have decided to go with him though, I mean, I love him and he has a point. He has sacrificed a lot for me."
"Yes but so have you. Your privacy, your freedom, being in the public eye is no easy feat. Relationships take sacrifice, you need to sit down and come to a compromise, this is what I was worried about." I nodded, leaning forward in my chair and putting my elbows on my knees.
"But this is is job. Many people change locations for their spouse. It happens all the time in the army."
"Yes but you aren't in the army." She pointed out. I nodded, sighing, thinking about it.
"There will be a compromise, nothing has to happen this week. Not this time at least." She gave me a smile. Things were going to be okay. "How are you feeling about all of this?"
"Stressed, worried that if I dont make the compromise then I am going to loose him."
"If its real love you wont." She assured me. I thought about it for a moment before groaning and sitting up straight.
"I'm just- I don't know." I was looking for words. "I cant imagine my life without him in it. At the end of the day I need him. Not for money or for support but because he is my rock, the person I want to call at the end of the day and the one face I want to see when I was up, every morning. He is my heart and my soul and I love him, i just.....I just fucking love him." I heard her laugh a bit as I ran my fingers through my hair. "What, what is funny."
"You." She smiled. "You have al of the answers right in front of you and you are asking me for advice to a problem you already know how to solve. You know what you want just go after it. It wont be easy, if it was everyone would do it."
"So thats it then." Just go after it, that was the great piece of advice i was looking for.
"That is it, and we are it of time for the day. I shall see you next money. I look forward to updates on how this plays out, but you know you can call me if you need to." I nodded, standing up and running my fingers through my hair again.
It was time, time to go see him and to talk to him and to try and make sense of what was going on. Tell him that I would move if that is what it took to be with him.
Gathering my things I threw my bag over my shoulder and clutched it to my side. "Thank you, i will see you next week." I offered a small smile before heading towards the door.
Seth had gone to pick up Grey from the airport so I drove myself today. I jumped into the car that was waiting for me in the parking lot and stuck my key in the ignition. It roared to life as I put it into rive and pulled out of the lot, heading home.
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I stepped off the elevator and stared at the door in front of me. Was he going to be mad still? He said some awful things, I wasn't sure how this was going to roll over. Last time i had everything planned it went the opposite direction that I had wanted it to.
Taking one final breathe I twisted the handle and pushed the door open. Stepping side I glanced around to see if Grey was anywhere in sight, not seeing him, I set my keys and bag down and took a deep breathe.
"Grey." I mustered up the courage to talk My voice coming out shaky as I did. I waited a second but didn't hear anything back so I took a few steps and looked around again. he wasn't in the living room, so my best chances were the bedroom. "Grey." I said again, louder this time.
The door was closed so i knocked once lightly before turning the handle and pushing it open. Grey was standing at the edge of the bed with his suitcase open. He was wearing dress pants and a white button down, still looking like he was ready to go to work.
he stood up straight and his head snapped in my direction when he saw me. Instantly his facial features relaxed when his eyes landed on mine. I wasnt sure how to react, was I still suppose to be angry, was he?
We stood there for a moment, staring at each other, trying to figure out how to react when he broke.
"I am so sorry." It was almost a whisper but it was enough for me to hear. My bottom lip betrayed me as it began to quiver and I broke.
I ran into him, tears filling my eyes and streaming down my cheeks as I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him into me, him doing the same with my waist.
"I'm so sorry baby, I never should have said those things. I didnt mean them." He whispered into my hair as his fingers tied knots in them. I nodded, shoving my face into the nape of his neck as I cried.
"I'm sorry, you were right, about all of it. I have been so selfish." I muttered as I pulled away, gasping for air. He pushed the wet strands of hair out of my face. I could see that he was crying as well, tears lightly falling onto his face as he spoke.
"no no, listen to me" he said quietly, cupping my face as he spoke, bringing my chin up so I could see his eyes. "I choose you, in every universe, in every manner of the word, I choose you. I knew things were going to change the second I met you and I understand that with relationship comes change. We both changed when we got together and I am so sorry that I didn't listen to you sooner."
"You were right, every time we have made a decision I have put myself first. We can go." I nodded quickly, wiping my eyes. "If L.A is what you want then we can leave, we can go now. Pack up the apartment and move out tomorrow and comeback for the rest." Okay maybe not tomorrow but he got my point. "Its you Grey. You are my future and if this is what you want then we can start our life out in L.A."
He studied me for a moment, before his eyebrows furrowed and he stifled a laugh. I'm not sure he knew how to react to that one.
"I extended my trip until today so that i had more time to talk to my investors. We agreed that I would be in the best interest of the company to build our own building in a spot of our own location." he said with a small smile. What did this mean, was it a good thing? "Construction begins in July, that gives us enough time to get the permits and everything and buy the land where we want it. It will take about 6 months to get up and running which means that..."
I cut him off. "We can stay til December!" The realization hit me as I let go of him and covered my mouth. We didn't have to leave yet. I could take summer courses and finish my degree and we could move around Christmas time. "We can stay!" I felt another round of tears spring to my eyes. I had been preparing myself to move fo the last two days and now I don't have to tell everyone good bye come next week.
Grey grinned, making a small laugh as I jumped up and down. "We can stay!" I screamed again, hugging him tightly as he picked me up. He spun around gripping on tight to me so I didn't fall off as I wrapped my legs around his waist.
"I love you." I grinned as he set me down, I didn't wait to hear anything back as I pressed my lips against his, ending our three day long fight.
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