The Islander(Royalty Series 2)

KABANATA 19

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I never felt this kind of heartbreak before. All I knew that I was trusting him with my all. Is that the reason why I'm hurting right now? Because I trust him more than what he deserve? I've been warned by one person and a two yet I didn't believe them. Their conclusion is enough to doubt him but I was too foolish not to consider it.

I can feel pain right now, a lots of it. My heart is hurting and even it's too unbelievable, I think it's bleeding right now. The trust I have for him vanished in the air. Like a dust flown in nowhere.

I sipped my chocolate milk. Nakabalot ng jacket ang katawan. Tila nananadya ang tadhana, umuulan, ipinapahiwatig ang aking nararamdaman. Parang sinasampal nang tadhana kung gaano ako kalungkot ngayong araw. Malamig rin ang simoy ng hangin. Di ko alam kung nakikipag dalamhati sa aking namatay na puso o gusto niya lang ipaalala na sadyang nakakalungkot ang araw na to.

Seconds, turned into minutes, then hours, Paul never showed up. Even his shadows. All I think was his words. My happy memories about him were tarnished. Pain were inflicted.

"Kanina ka pa nakasimangot dyan."

Napaigtad ako sa boses ni Aling Chora. Her strict facade never left her face. Kung hindi ko lang siya kilala mapakakamalan ko siyang strict na librarian.

Umusmid siya sa harapan ko. Umiinom ng paborito niyang kape.

"Di ka sinipot noh?" Amused niyang tanong.

Nakasimangot lang ako sa kanya. Mukhang mas gusto ko ang tahimik niyang awra kesa ang tsismosa niya.

"Alam kong nagkaroon ng agwat ang pagitang natin dahil kay Bat, hindi ba?" Aniya sa mababang boses.

Actually, di ko naman iniisip ang bagay na yun. As what I've said, he's just a friend. I don't know kung hanggang ngayon...

"It's not that you're not enough for him nor I don't like you for my nephew." She sighed, looking at me intently.

"May iba't ibang paraan ang tao kung paano isagawa ang gusto nilang mangyari. I've been hard to you para lumayo ka kay Bat, I know I've said inappropriate words to you. If that's the only way to make you stay away from him."She smiled sadly.

"You're my ideal woman. But I can't risk you falling in love with him knowing he'll be in danger. You can't love him for the reason that someone is already destined for you." She said.

Hindi ko na pinagtuonan ng pansin ang huli niyang salita. I'm happy atleast may magandang nangyari ngayong araw. Hindi lang puro sakit ang aking nararamdaman.

I was surprised when she hugged me. My eyes are wide and lips parted. This isn't the first time but it's heart whelming than before.

"Sana mapatawad mo ko pagdating ng panahon." She whispered. I can hear her conscience within her words.

I nodded, no words came out from my mouth. Pagkatapos ng nangyari. Sa tingin ko, sa oras ng bumuka ang bibig ko. I'll start crying a river again and again.

I already accepted that I am inlove with him. But I never knew that this pain he inflicted is worst than I thought. I love him the reason why I trusted him. And I trusted him because I love him is the reason why I'm hurting... Punyemas na pag ibig. How can I unlove him? I want the pain to go away.

Hindi naman ako ganito kung pag aaral ang problema eh.

"You keep sighing every minute." Kaye's voice bring me back from my reverie.

"You look problematic girl." Napailing pa siya sakin.

Days had passed at maayos na ang panahon ngayon. Lumabas ako ng bahay at tumambay sa harap ng dagat. Di ko naman alam na nandito rin si Kaye, Okay na rin. Atleast may kasama ako. Nga lang hindi ako makaka pag emote.