Who Was I Trying to be? • Brendon Urie

Chapter Ten

1 month later

Alyssa's POV

Ring....ring...ring

I shot up and grabbed my phone on my bedside table.I sleepily look at the time and it is 7pm. We ate dinner at exactly 5pm because I told my aunt that I'm going to study for my math test tomorrow for the whole evening.
But I fucking fell asleep.Without glancing at it, I answered it."Hello?"
"Doll?"

I nearly choke up the water I was drinking when I heard his voice.
Brendon.
"Uh,are you alright?" He noticed it.
I wipe my mouth."Yes," I yawned.
He chuckles softly,"Have you been sleeping? Its still a little early."
I stand up and looked at my window.
"Yeah,I'm tired."I scratch my eyes.
"Please don't be stressed,Ali."He sighs.
"I don't want you to get sick."He says sweetly.My heart melted.This man cared for me.
"Okay,"I sit on my bed.I heard him sigh on the other line."I wish I could help you study."

"No,its fine.I can do it.Don't worry.Math is a piece of cake."I say.

"If you are having trouble with it,you know who'll help you in anything."

I giggle lightly."Bren..."

He laughs."What?"

I shyly smiled."Nothing,"
He shuffles from the other line."Come on,what is it?" He is being too sweet tonight."Can you sing to me?"
I can picture his smile."Of course."

Brendon and I had been close ever since I accepted his proposal on tutoring me.My aunt agreed happily of course.She was so happy that she's gonna blow up.He had sang the song that I requested him to sing,and hearing it for the first time,it is cool.
I love the way he closes his eyes while singing.Its just that he is really a sight to look at.We have been tutoring for 1 month and I've overcome my laziness.I'm so thankful for him as always.I've been distant to Carly and James.Because there was one time,in school,James was about to charge at me but Brendon came just in time to stop him.He was suspended by the school,the principal listened to Brendon's report about him.And Carly was hurt.She couldn't look at me in the eye.And she ended our friendship via chat.Well,I got taken aback by that,and I'm hurting too.I can't lose her.But Brendon coaxed me throught that,saying that Carly doesn't deserve me.And that Marsha is here for me.
Brendon did help me a lot.I wish I could thank him everytime he does something good.

Talking to him every night has become a routine.He would be the one to call first,like what happened today.Of course,my aunt always complained about who the heck I am talking to every night.I would say that it is Marsha,but it is Brendon all along.I wouldn't want her to know that.Because I am scared.I am scared that she'll know.
Brendon and I had been closer as ever.He replaced the hatred I've been feeling for Carly with happiness.I can't explain everything I felt that day when coaxed me but he has done enough for me.And that's very generous of him.

"Alyssa?" I heard my aunt at my door.
"Hold on," I say to him and opened my door."Do you a ballpen? Can I borrow?" I went to my dresser and handed her a ballpen."Go to sleep exactly at 9,okay?"She said."I will,goodnight."She left and I shut the door.I lay in bed and picked my phone and pressed it to my ear."Was that Miranda?"He asks.I scoffed and laugh."Yeah."He chuckles."She is very stern."
" I know. Weird right."
A moment of silence.
"Thank you for singing to me."I say.He sighs lightly."I wish I would sing to you every night.I want to."I smile to myself.

"I'll be studying now."I say.

"Oh,right."

"Goodnight.Bren."

"Night,Doll."

I ended the call and sent him a message.

Me> You inspire me.

I am about to place my phone away but he replied instantly.

Brendon> You inspire me more ♡

I smile at the heart emoji and I sent him back too.