Who Was I Trying to be? • Brendon Urie

Chapter Twenty-Five

Alyssa's POV

The sun blinded my eyes.I began to shift on the bed but I saw Brendon's tattooed arm draped lazily on my waist.I look at the clock and it read 8:37 am.We overslept.We have to grab breakfast before 9:00.I turned to Brendon and kissed his cheek to wake him up."Bren.."I kissed him again and his eyes opened.He smiled at me."Good morning.."He sat up and rubbed his eyes.He looked around then to me.He noticed my nightgown strap had fallen and he fixed it for me.Then,he sighed deeply.
"Alyssa,I'm sorry about what happened last night."He said,looking down.
Why he is still sorry about what happened last night?
"I've lost control..I feel so bad.."He said running a hand through his hair."Don't feel bad please,you've done nothing wrong..."I lean my head on his shoulder."Besides,you are amazing."He turned to me while I take my head off his shoulder.He is shirtless and I am still in my nightgown,and I don't give a crap about it.We looked so tired.I blush when he fixed my hair."So you are going to blush after all that?"I laugh at him.
"I've lost control,I don't know what came over me,I'm sorry I got impatient."He kissed my lips."Apology accepted,even though you have done nothing wrong."
He smiled at me."I can't really remember what happened last night,all I know is that you kissed me."I said.He stands up."Maybe this will help you remember.."He turned around and I gasp at what I saw.

He had long scratches on his back that went from the top of his shoulders.It looked liked it has been caused by fingernails.And that hit me.I did that.I clawed his back while we were doing God knows what.I've never felt so much pleasure that I dug my fingernails into his back.I was a little worried."We didn't have sex did we?"I asked him.He sat down on the bed and looked down on me."No.We just..we made out last night."He blushed a little bit.Thank god..
"Remember what I said while were in the middle of something? I will never force you to do anything with me."
I smiled at him."Good.."I kiss him unexpectedly and wrapped my arms around his neck.He kissed back sloppily as I pushed him to lay down on the edge of the bed.He laughed,"We won't make it to the lobby if you keep doing that."
He smirked and stroked my hair."Its okay to be a little late."

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We didn't make it to the lobby.Obviously,I am in control.I win over him finally because I kept myself on top of him.I'm tired of him pushing me always against something,so why not try to be in control.We never did anything stupid,we just made out until were both hungry.I said that I didn't want to go to the lobby anymore,my short legs are weak and I am still so sleepy.Brendon just ordered room service and I am still in bed."Brendon..I'm hungry."I whine while lying down on the bed.He is sitting on the bed,his back facing me.He yanked down his shorts and I covered my eyes.He chuckles and changed into a new one.He then grabbed a sweat shirt from his bag and he goes into the bathroom.I love little things like this.The sun is shining,the room is peaceful,just me and Brendon.I will never ever forget any of this.I just wanted to be feel free by now,but its still impossible.We still have to go back.Brendon came out of the bathroom."So are you just gonna lay there all day and wait for me?"He smirked as he made his way to the bed.I clutch the covers for warmth."Yeah."I say in my child voice.I cover my face with a pillow as I feel him rise up from the bed.I peeked at him and he pulled out something from my bag.He throws me a shirt and some shorts."Get changed,darling."
"Nooooo..."I clutch the covers more and whined."Get changed,or I will make you change."He said in a more serious tone.I opened my eyes and I rise up from the bed and took my clothes."Okay,dad."I say while getting inside the bathroom."What?"I heard him and laughed.

We are eating on the bed as we talked about what to do for today.Brendon suggested that we have to take one last stroll around the area,because he wants to take pictures to show my aunt.We are leaving tomorrow morning,and that made me sad.He is sad too."But it won't stop us from being together."He said to me.I smiled wide and hopefully,we will never be apart.