Who Was I Trying to be? • Brendon Urie

Chapter Thirty-Three

Alyssa's POV

I let him go down on me.Just like that.
I changed into my shorts and t shirt as I began to clean his house.I dust off the windows and vaccumed under his couch and after an hour,everything is spotless.Brendon is in his office,working.I didn't want to disturb him.I just cleaned his house like I was living here,well,I wish.Before everything was spotless,he had a lot of beer bottles all over.And I'm goad that I solved that problem."Hey,sweetheart."I heard Brendon from his office and I walked in there.I placed the feather duster I was holding on a table."You don't have to do that,baby.."Brendon stands up and makes his way to me."Oh,its okay.."Brendon began to lean in and I close my eyes,waiting for his lips to crash on mine.But,instead,I felt paper being placed on my lips.I opened my eyes to see Brendon smirking."Would you be doll and make ten copies of these? And sort them in alphabetical order."He goes back to his desk and I proceed to go to his photocopying machine."You're such a tease."I mumble."What?"I heard him sternly say and I look back at him."Sir."
Brendon snickered and he went back to type on his laptop.

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Throughout the day and everytime I look at him,moments from last night replayed back in my head.I would blush and not say something.While I help him work,I know that he stares at me all the time.I caught him one time and he just simply tore his eyes from me and focus on his work.You,Mr.Urie,are a sly one.I will never find him creepy.I speak out silently in my mind.Because he's done something that made me love him even more.And that's last night.Its weird to say that I liked every moment of it,and its even more weirder because everytime I take a look at him,my private part screamed for him.That I need him.That I would give myself to him again.Ooh,I'm so crazy to even think straight.He is driving me crazy.Brendon is driving me crazy.
I text my aunt,that I will spend another night at Marsha's,she sent me an angry voicemail and she finally agreed.Ugh.
"Ali...let's eat."I heard Brendon from the kitchen and I went down the stairs to see him.I went to where he was and he pulled out a chair for me to sit.I sit and he went to sit down in front of me."Dig in."I loved what he cooked for us.I took a big bite of the chicken I am holding.God,its so good."This is so good,I don't wanna swallow it."Brendon laughs."Swallow,I don"t want you to get hungry."I smile at him and began to eat more."I'd blame you if I become fat."
"You're always beautiful to me."

I continued to clean around the house and Brendon is still doing his work.We already have dinner and I went in the living room cleaning his tv and I slept on the couch.
I opened my eyes to see the ceiling of his bedroom.Gosh,what time is it? I look at his clock and it read 11:00pm.I rubbed my eyes and gasped when I heard a loud thunder from outside.Rain poured eventually.I shrieked when I saw lightning from the windows.I turned on the lamp and see myself dressed in my nightgown.Brendon must have changed me.I took off my bra and begin to bring myself off of the bed and walk to the guestroom to stuff my bra into my bag.I walked out later on and I bring myself to Brendon's office with a rather serious request.

I pushed his door open and see him in his shirt and writing something on his desk."Hey,I am almost done already.."He glances up to me and continues to write."You should be sleeping already."He said and I walked to where he is."I was just going to stay in bed,but I am cold."I said.Yes,that is true.I'm scared to sleeping with the roaring sounds of thunder,ever since I was a child.What meant is that I want him there with me.Brendon looked up to me and smiled,I thought that he was going to lead me to his bedroom,but he just pulled his sweatshirt from his chair and slid it over my body.He moved my hair from the inside and let it flow down my back.The sleeves are much longer than my arms and the sweatshirt looks like a loose dress on me."There,now go get some sleep."I didn't leave,I just played with the long sleeves of his sweatshirt and looked down nervously.I'm ashamed and scared to ask him.I let the words come out of my mouth."I...I just wanted..I wanted you to..Its storming and I didn't want to be alone."
I didn't dare to look him in the eyes and i feel his hands on my waist.He stood up from his chair and took my chin in his hand and pecks my lips."I'll be there,go get comfy."I nodded and went up the stairs to his room.I felt happy and I took the sweatshirt and took off my nightgown,leaving me nothing with my underwear on.I slid back his sweatshirt.I hopped on his bed and get in under the covers and turned the lights off.I heard the door opened and saw Brendon locking it."You all look comfy cute there,"I giggled and he stripped off his clothes leaving him only in his boxers.I turned to my side and hugged the covers.I feel the bed dip,making my end rise.I feel his hands on my arms."Hi.."He whispered and he kissed my neck."Come here,"I turn to snuggle in his bare chest.

(WARNING:SMUT)

"Are you scared?"He asks,while he snaked his hand under his sweater.
"No,not anymore."I said,feeling his warm hand rubbing my back."You took off your nightgown?"His hand stopped and I booped his nose."I thought you're cold."He said and I laughed."You're here."I said.He suddenly flings off the covers and positioned himself between my legs.He lifted off his sweat shirt up to my face.I laugh and I shrugged off the shirt from my face.He smiled and kissed my lips briefly.

"You make things easy for me,doll."I smirked at his deep voice and he slid his head under his shirt,covering his head.I don't know what's on his mind.I feel him nibble my breasts and I gripped his arms through his sweatshirt.I feel his tongue wetting my breasts and I moaned when his hand played my nipple,flicking and rubbing his finger on it.Then he suddenly got his head out and pushed the sweater up to my head,it covered my eyes.I feel him tie my hands with the sweater's sleeve on his head board.

I gasp when his lips made contact on my right breast,while massaging the left one.I find myself getting used to this,I realized it now.I lived the way his lips danced around my breasts,creating a nice bond,that made my head spin.He digged his hands on my waist and he trailed his kisses down to my stomach.He continued to cup both of my breasts as he did so,and I arch my back."I want you.."He whispered to my skin and I feel him take off my underwear once again.I expected him to go down on me again,but this time is different.I gasped when I feel his hand between my legs,pushing his middle finger in my core.I tugged my hands and wanted to grabbed his hair,but he tied my hands so tight.

He kissed my lips and took my my bottom lip between his teeth,and softly pumped his finger in and out.I whimper and called out his name.I never experienced this in my entire life."Brendon..untie me please.."

I whimper out as he pumped harder.He quickly untied my hands and they automatically went to his head.I pull him closer to me,causing him to push his finger harder into my core.A tear spring out of my eye when he continued his movement down there."Oooooohh...Bren...don..."
I moaned and he pulled out his hand.I feel him covered me with a blanket and he lay beside me and he pulled me to his chest."I'll keep you safe.."He pressed a kiss on my head and I doze off to sleep.