Innocent [on hold]

Nightmare

Kayn POV
Chapter 12

   
*WARNING: A bit of gore in this chapter*

            Blood
            Blood
           Blood

    Feet pattering against the cold floor.
    Splat. Splat. Splat.

    The strange wind howling.
    Grating against the windows

    Red sprays on the wall blood staining the curtains.
     The candlelight casting shadows.

    Dead lifeless eyes

    Dead lifeless eyes staring at me.
  Watching me.

     Cold

    Cold

    Cold

     The cold fills my bones.
     Seeping through my skin.
      Penetrating my heart like barbed wire.

     Cold flesh with lifeless eyes watching me move.
      Watching my every move.

    Blood seeping through my toes.
    Staining my feet.
     I can't ever get it off.
     I can't wash it away.

     Rising

    Rising

    Rising

    The warm blood contrasting with the cold bodies floating around me.

    Lifeless eyes watching me.

    Frozen

    Frozen

     My legs are glued to the floor.  The blood pours out.  Everything is bloody.  Bloody lifeless eyes watch me.

     I can't move

    I can't scream

    The blood

    The eyes

    I can't escape

    I can't escape

    Footsteps sloshing in the blood. Their blood.

    A cold knife against my neck.  I can't breathe can't think. 

    I'm dead
    I'm dead
    I'm dead

         Panting. I wake up. Cold sweat running down my back. I touch my cheeks and feel tears soaking them.
        It's the same nightmare.  The same nightmare every night.  Every single night. 
         I slip off my bed and wake shakily to my bathroom, in the darkness.  I take a look at myself while in the mirror. While rubbing at my sore neck. Was I screaming again?
                I splash warm water on my face before wrapping myself in a blanket and walking into the kitchen to make myself a cup of coffee to wake myself up.

        3:08 am

       I go to the living room for my computer before sitting on the kitchen counter munching on a twinkie.  I could barely taste it.  Numbness washed over my entire body.

       After a few minutes of losing solitaire, I surf the web aimlessly.  Whether subconsciously or not I find myself staring at a picture of a grim reaper.  I tap the articles.

          "An immortal being punished to stay on the earth as a wandering spirit"

     "A being that kills the corrupt souls on earth"

    "A supreme being that sends off the beings that have reached the end on their lifetime"

    "Punisher of sinners"

    "Keeper of equilibrium"

         I couldn't help myself.  A laugh bubbled out of me.  How stupid.  Pitiful even.
         How can one be stupid enough to believe that a fallen?  A deranged thing.  It can be something like a "keeper of equilibrium".
        It's funny.  How people produce a perfectly conceivable lie to justify their ideals of a utopic society.  A utopic society that gets further away from where we are because of the selfish fantasies we hold.  Such is human nature, selfishly warping on itself to justify and beautify.  Hypocritical.
       
       But I'm no better.

       I turn off my computer and sip at the hit coffee before grabbing my phone and heading back to bed.   I wasn't planning to go back to sleep.  Having a nightmare once per night was fine with me. I'm not masochistic enough to want to be plagued more.
    
    Yaz, u up?

       An incoming call confirms my guess.

    "No." I hear a sleepy Yazmin respond after yawning loudly on the other end. "Did you have the same nightmare again?"

   I nod before realizing she couldn't see me than responding. "Yeah, then I woke up and did some research for a case."

   She sighs, "Kay, you can't run from your problems by burying yourself in work. It's unhealthy. "

   I know. "I'm not running from my problems. " I respond. " I just don't have time to deal with them."

   "Kayn. We both know that if you really wanted to solve them you would've made time. Your hiding from your problems. Wishing they will go away."

    I don't respond. 
    Silence.

    "I didn't mean to wake you.  You should probably go back to bed."

    "Kayn wait-"

      I hang up.  Curling myself into a ball and waiting for daylight.

A/N
      Happy June Loves,
      And SCENE!  Do you love me or do you love me?
      Here's a bit of hmmm... Character development?  Also, what are your guy's views on Kayn and her killing spree so far?  Is it justified?  What about Kronos?
       Unpopular opinion but I believe that she isn't totally wrong for killing people, but that's an explanation for another day. 
      Love you love you lots,
                        Grey