Behind You (gxg)

G - is for Groove

Finally, Thursday came around and I already felt lighter and like I had my groove back. A part of me knew that the awaited date played a big part in my quick bounce-back-to-reality, but I tried not too think about it too much. A wise guru/therapist/Erin once told me, "Don't put all your eggs in one basket, you never know how sturdy it is." And while it was super easy to just use Lilah as some sort of muse or cure for my aches, deep down I knew it wasn't right and it wouldn't last. So, that meant a very early phone call to a very grumpy guru.

"Why the fuck are you calling me at six in the morning Dryss?" A very unhappy Erin grumbled on the other side of the line.

"You know how you said that I shouldn't bet all my money on one horse, and not to put all my eggs in one basket, and how I don't have a horse or any eggs because I ran out a few days ago but I don't eat eggs that much-" I started horribly.

"What the fuck are you going on about? Get too it before I hang up on your rambling ass." She was not in the mood this morning, heck no.

"Sorry, okay, so you know how I'm not always the most stable cause I got health issues and never enough tissues and stuff?"

"Get on with it Dryss-"

"I have a date with Lilah this afternoon."

Silence.

"This is what you woke me up for at six in the goddamn morning? Jesus. This couldn't wait till a more decent hour?" She sounded more awake, but still just as grumpy if not borderline snappy. Well, I did just wake the dragon.

"I have the morning shift today... anyways, I just... I don't want to fuck this up. I had a bad day not too long ago and I'm honestly kind of terrified... I know I haven't known her for long, but I like her... and I'm scared that my ache-y breaky body will betray me and she'll reject me and then I'll still have to see her cause her kid goes to my workplace, fuck." I sighed overdramatically; I really hadn't thought this through enough.

There was a sigh on the other side in response, "Noa. You always do this. Have you ever thought that maybe she'll actually help you out and support you? That she might have shit going on too that you don't know about? It's just a first date... take a breath." I took a breath.

"Sorry for waking you up so early..." I said quietly, feeling a smidge calmer.

Another sigh, "it's fine, technically I'm hoping this is just some dumbass dream and I'm still asleep." A chuckle.

"Thanks Erin"

"Anytime loser. Now stop worrying so much and go get ready for work with a bunch of lunatic hyper monster babies." With that she hung up, or dropped the phone or something. There was a bunch of noise, some colourful words, and static before silence followed. I have a very professional guru.

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Work dragged on today until suddenly in a blink of an eye it was quarter to four. I couldn't tell if I was excited or nervous, but my little therapy chat earlier with Erin helped a bit. Some of the children's parents were already starting to pull into the daycare's parking lot, but Lilah was not one of them. It was still a bit early, but I was starting to look like one of the antsy toddlers constantly checking the window. On the fourteenth time I walked by the front window my nose started twitching. Then my face scrunched up subconsciously and something clicked in my brain. I turned around to the three toddlers sitting on the carpet nearby playing with some building blocks.

I immediately made eye contact with Ryan. Ryan kept a poker face as he stared back. Then he got up and ran.

"Ryan! Get back here!" I chased after him as he waddled between the other kids with a stinky load weighing down the back of his pants. He just squealed at the game. Every damn time.