Behind You (gxg)

I- is for Instinct

I had the same dream again, the one where I was falling and then being caught and held by a being with warm black wings. I was getting a little frustrated with this dream as it seemed so real, but I would wake in such a panic. Another sleepless night. Another 4am coffee on the terrace. At least the sunrise was beautiful.

After Erin and I had talked a bit more, we ended up falling sleep on the couch together. As the sun came up, I started to get restless and I decided it was time to go back into the living room and face the mess that was left from the night before. As quietly as possible, I started to gather beer bottles, stray chips, and the empty ice cream carton that littered the coffee table and floor. I really did try to maneuver around Erin and not wake her up, but her turning over in her sleep and whacking me in the face with her arm was not anticipated. Technically, she woke herself up.

"Fuck-" Groaning and raging eyes met my surprised and flushed face, "What the fuck?"

I gave Erin a dirty look and was ready to tell her off when she mumbled, "it's too early to care, goodnight" and went right back to sleep. Man, she's a real grouch in the mornings; although to be fair it was a little after six on a Saturday.

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Lilah 🌙: Still down to go dancing tonight? My mom is over helping to take care of Uri, and I really can't handle too much of her lol

I had finally heard back from Lilah in the afternoon. I had started to doubt if she would join me, which Erin called bullshit because, her words, "Lilah totally wants to fuck you senseless man, just chill." As much as the idea piqued my interest, I still had my insecurities.

Lucky me though, Erin couldn't join us tonight; not that I asked her to anyhow.

Noa: Hey! Totally, I'll swing by around 10 if that's good for you. Just us two tonight btw

Lilah 🌙: Perfect ;)

Gosh I love it when she flirts.

I had gotten ready pretty quickly, going for a basic look of ripped black jeans and a nice black button-down shirt with the sleeves rolled up. I always rolled up my sleeves, even in the wintertime. I put on a pair of black sneakers and made sure I had all I needed before the Uber arrived. I felt confident tonight, something inside my told me it was going to be a good time. I texted Lilah letting her know I was on my way and went down to the lobby to meet the driver.

When we arrived at Lilah's house, she was already waiting outside on her steps. She looked like she was floating as she walked towards the car, dressed in a short flowing white with lilac flowers dress. I stepped out to greet her, my heart pounding in my chest at how stunning she looked. She gave me a light hug and I held the door for her as she slipped into the back seat. I was a little tongue-twisted at the beginning of the drive, but luckily, she knew how to get a conversation going.

"I'm so happy to get out of there! It's not that I'm not worried about Uri or anything but having my mom there can be a little suffocating" She chuckled and played with the fabric of her dress, twisting and straightening it out again with her fingers. I reached over and gently grabbed her hand to hold it in mine.

"It's all good, I'm just happy I get to go out with you again" I said smiling brightly. Gosh I'm such a sap.

We had gotten to the club in no time, making just light conversation on the way. She laughed at how I was getting more restless by the second as we got closer to the club. It wasn't my fault that I craved the music so intensely.

After I paid for our entrance fee, I pulled her over to the dance floor practically instantly and did a funny dance move which caused her to laugh at my silliness. She held both my hands and brought herself close to me before giving me a quick kiss on the nose before spinning me, which made me smile real silly-like. We were so oblivious to anyone around us, that we hadn't even noticed the dance floor get more packed. We swayed together for a bit, spun each other around, laughed, jumped. But it started to get really busy, and we were pushed closer and closer together.

I wasn't the biggest fan of when it got so crazy, because people tended to start shoving or accidently bumping into you. It also meant that you would sometimes have unwanted people getting way to close. Considering Lilah was dancing in front of me, I knew that whoever was getting real personal behind me, was not invited to do so. Lilah could see that something was distracting me.

She placed her arms on my shoulders and danced as she moved closer, she made sure to give the person behind me a real dirty look. Not too long after, I didn't feel anyone dancing behind me anymore. Well, I guess I should never make her angry!

At a certain point we returned to that magical position like the last time we went dancing; she was behind me with her hands on my waist and her body pressed against mine. We moved as one and I closed my eyes and got so lost in the movement and music that it almost didn't feel real anymore, I just knew how to move by instinct. I felt that familiar warmth and sense of safety, it overwhelmed my senses and made me feel so light.

My eyes flickered open for a brief moment and caught sight of something pitch black. I quickly opened my eyes again and although the club lights were flashing quite a bit, I couldn't deny what I was seeing. Wrapped around me, and almost over me, were black feathers like in my dream. The tips of what I could only guess where wings, met right in the center of my vision and crossed each other slightly. I immediately shut my eyes tightly.

This is not real. Did I drink something that was laced with something? What. Is. Going. On.

I slowly opened my eyes again, but the black wings remained. Could everyone see this? How was no one screaming? What the fuck?!

Lilah.

Could she see this?

I could still feel her warm hands on my waist and her body pressed against mine. But I could also feel my heart hammering in my chest way too intensely and I felt myself start to go weak. The last thing I remembered hearing before I must have fainted was Lilah's velvety voice whispering in my ear, "I won't let you go, I won't let you go."

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Okay okay! What do you think? I don't know what I think.... I feel like this is rushed but also the last few chapters have been sooooo long so like BOOM

What. Is. Going. On!? What are your theories? What are your conspiracies? Share in the comments go wild haha