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Angst~♡
Modern AU
!¡Manga Spoiler¡! - Read at your own risk
1896 words

[a/n: i will be using lowercase letters again. also since they do get incarnated, they would have different names, but i'm too lazy, so we'll just use the same names]

we met again, love

[taisho era]

the demon race is no more. we've won. i'm dying, and a lot of my comrades have already died. the cost of this victory was immense, but it was worth it. but i never would thought that he would hold me in his arms in my final moments. it's something i never would've imagined happening. we were both dying. i couldn't see his beautiful heterochromatic eyes again, but at least i saw him smile once more. he was my best friend, the one i foolishly fell in love with. but of course, he was in love with someone else. i was shocked that he would still come to me in my final moments. maybe he would rather have stayed beside her. mitsuri's lifeless body was taken away. i was sure to myself that they'd die together, but he took the time to use his final moments to talk to me too. i have always supported him with his feelings for her. i helped them get together, even if it meant hurting myself deep inside. i've always tried burying my feelings for him, but i couldn't. he never knew about it, about my feelings. how i foolishly fell for him through all the years we've been friends. i wanted to die without him knowing, yet i also wanted to die loving him. but this would be my last chance to tell him how i feel. i saw the both of them exchange vows. i was crying in both joy and sadness. i was happy for him. his feelings were returned, he was happy, they made a promise and that's all i need. i honestly feel so thankful that he took his time to be beside me as well.

"hey, why are you here beside me? why waste your time on me. you can stay with her until the very end, so why-"

"y/n, don't be so selfless all the time. don't you ever think of your own happiness? i also want to be beside my best friend."

"i'm dying. what good would it be for you to be here? you should've stayed with mitsuri, until your last breath."

"do you really not want me to be here? do you wish to die this way? be true to yourself for the first and final time, y/n-"

"you want me to be... true to myself? fine. fine. I WILL.

obanai, i've been in love with you for as long as i know. i had a dream. that dream, along with my heart, has been shattered for a long time. you were in love with her. what could i do? i hid my feelings for the longest time. now you ask me to be true, and i'm being true. it hurts so bad. so, so bad. i feel my heart ache everytime you talk about her. everytime you say you love her. but that's okay. i'm okay. it hurts, but it's easy to hide. easy to hide, but hard to bury. i tried getting rid of these feelings, but i couldn't. i'm sorry. i never tried to sabbotage your chance with her. believe me. i've always wanted you to be together because that would make you happy. but, if i wanted to be honest, i wanted to be with you. i wanted you to love me too. i'm being selfish, am i not? haha, i'm sorry. that was my wish, my dear selfish wish. but i know that would never happen. so, my wish now is to be reborn in a peaceful world, where i would meet you again, see your beautiful eyes again, and see you smile once more. i'd love to be your best friend again, and i'd love to fall for you again over and over. even if it meant that i'd get hurt over and over. let's meet each other in our next life, iguro obanai."