Rekindled Feelings (Chavez Primos Series #1)

Chapter 14

Weeks have passed and my unknown feelings for Axel grown too much, that I can actually name it by now, but I cant and I won't. Because if i will, i might get hurt.

"Oh bakit namomroblema ka diyan?"

Medyo napaigtad ako sa gulat ng bigla siyang magsalita sa tabi ko, it's Thursday today and free time namin, napag desisyonan kong mapag isa muna. I didn't know he followed me or am I just being too delusional?

Lumingon ako sa kanya and pilit na ngumiti. He's holding Two cups of Iced Tea, my favorite!

"Oh."

Ibinigay niya sa akin ang isa, tinanggap ko naman iyon at nagpasalamat. Akala ko ay aalis na siya pero umupo siya sa tabi ko, and our skin touch. That it sent me shivers.

I feel like he can hear my heart throbbing like crazy, right now!

"Naka move - on kana ba?" aniya. Siguro ang tinutukoy ay si Joshua. I sipped the Iced coffee.

"I realized that I wasn't really inlove with him, puppy love lang pala." I said without even giving him a glance.

He chuckled. "You should've realized it before you answer him."

"I was being tempted. And nakakahiya naman kung i-reject ko siya sa maraming tao."

We chuckled for a bit. At naging tahimik ng ilang segundo.

"You know, to be honest. Kilala ko na talaga si Joshua noon pa man."

Nagulat ako sa biglaang sinabi niya kaya napalingon ako sa kanya. The side of his lips rose up.

"Pero doon lang ang kaya kung sabihin!" he said in a girly tone that echoed on the music room.

Natawa nalang ako. "Bakit naman?"

Maybe they have a past relationship, it's obvious that I don't need the answer. "Nevermind." I said, like i solved some puzzle.

Lumingon siya sa akin at tumayo, pinasadahan ko lang siya ng tingin hanggang sa lumapit siya doon sa piano. Pinagpag niya ang alikabok bago binuksan iyon, showing him the tiles.

Pinagmasdan ko lang talaga siya habang dahan dahan siyang umupo doon. At nagsimulang tumipa sa tiles ng piano. The rythm sents shiver down me. Ang ganda ng music, nakakarelax. Parang gusto mong maiyak dahil sobrang nakakarelax.

Seryoso siya habang pinapatugtog ang piano. His pointed nose, his jaw that clenched a bit. His bisceps that flexes whenever he plays, and those veins that showed up on from his hands up to almost his elbows. Even with that he looks hot with his fair skin.

I wonder if he isn't gay, siguro matagal ko na tong inamin. Pero bakit ngayon ko pa to naramdaman? We've been friends for years now. Maybe i can just took it off, since matagal ko na siyang kilala. It could be easy to just put this feelings on the trash, and see him like how I see him before. Just a friend. Just a gay brother.

Napansin ata niya ang pagmamasid ko sa kanya kaya bumaling siya sa akin, ending the play on his piano. Bago pa siya makatayo ay iniwan ko na siya doon sa music room.

I hate it. I still hate that I'm feeling this way, I should've just shrugged it off. But the more i hide it, the more it grows too much.

Until one day, I accidentally saw him with another man. Their on the edge of the stairs, parang nag uusap sila. Nang makita ako ni Axel na paakyat na sana doon ay bumaling ako sa ibang direksyon, nakita kong akmang hahabulin niya ako pero pinigilan siya noong lalaking kausap niya.

I don't know him! Maybe his new boyfriend! Damn that shouldn't be my care.

Mabilis ang lakad ko papunta ng carpark since tapos na ang klase ngayon. We haven't in contact with Axel for almost three days now. We haven't talk after i left him in the music room.