Those Strange Feelings

CHAPTER 21

LISA'S POV

Can someone punch me right now ? Fuck ! Is it real or  Does she playing with me ? Did just Jennie say that she like me ????

I keep walking back and forth inside my bedroom. I can't process what is happening right now. What will I do ? What will I say when I go to her room right now ? But why did I told to her that we will talk later and I will go to her room tonight if I am like this  coward ??!! You're such a  big stupid Lisa !

I need to face this. I can't avoid her forever...

I left a deep sigh and walk outside my room. I look at my wristwatch and its already 11 o' clock in the evening. I knock three times but no one's answering, Did she sleep already ? I knock once again...

"Come in..," I heard her say. I open her door slowly, I think my heart will go out of my body any moment by now because of too much beating.

"Jennie... did I disturb you ? ," she shook her head and seat on her bed. She's now staring at me and here I am look like an idiot standing near her door looking on the floor. I can't look at her.

"I'm sorry Lisa... ," I look at her and she's about to cry again.

I quickly go beside her and pull her into a comforting hug. I can't just stand there and see her cry like this knowing that I am the reason why her tears are keep on flowing through her beautiful face.

"There's no need to say sorry Nini... please stop crying," I said to her while caressing her hair. She slowly lift up her head and wiped her tears out. After a short silence....

"When did you feel that Nini ? Why didn't you tell me sooner ? ," I place my right hand to her face and let my thumb to feel her skin.

"I don't know... believe me I didn't even know that I like you Lisa. I just realized one day that I want all your attention are focus on me only.  I want you to stay beside me, I want to hear your voice everyday, I want to smell your sweet scent all over the place that I'm into. I want to feel your presence every damn time. I want every single thing of you Lisa...  ," I can't help but to stare and smile so wide while I'm watching her. I can't believe it.

"Are you just going to stare at me all night after what I have just confess to you ? ," she rolled her eyes. I can't help but to chuckled because of the sudden change of her behavior, from a crying baby Jennie to a bitchy one.

"I am sorry Nini... its just that you're .... too adorable tonight.," She blushed. Waaahhh ! Seriously ? The great Jennie kim blushed because of me ???

"Yah ! Stop it Lisa ! ," She slap my shoulder and cover her face. A long silence occupied her room once again.

"W-we can never be the same again Jennie...," she look hurt. Her eyebrows are furrowed and shaking her head slowly.

"Y-you d-dont want to be friend with me anymore Lisa ??? Do you feel disgust at me right now ??? ," I hold her hands and squeeze it.

"No Jennie.. ofcourse not. ," I look straight into her eyes.

"Then why we can't be the same anymore ? Tell me Lisa ! Are you going to avoid me now ?? Will you choose to waste our friendship just because of my feelings for you ? Can't we just---," shit ! What am I doing ???

My lips automatically press against her lips. I can't think straight, my mind is focus to her soft, sweet and delicate lips. It looks like my mouth has its own mind and it move on its own. I feel her stiffen but eventually  she let her lips to move too. Were moving our lips in sync.

There's a million of butterflies flying inside my stomach right now and my heart beats like a crazy and I can't blame her if she will hear it.

Her hands snake through my nake that urge me to place both of my hands to her waist for support. We deepen our kiss and I can't help but to chase her lips everytime our lips parted even in just a milliseconds. A very passionate kiss.

We're both panting when we pulled back our heads to grab some air. Both of our foreheads are resting to each other, I open my eyes and see that she's still close her eyes  with a smile on her face. I can't help but to smile too while enjoying her hands slowly playing with my silk hair.

"Why did you kiss me Lisa ? ," Jennie look at me still in our position.

"What do you think Nini ?," I smirk and look intently to her hazel nut brown eyes.

"Just say it  ! ," she cross her arms to her chest and look at me with an annoyed face.

"Silly ! I like you too My Nini ," I hold both of her hands when I say it. Her eyes widen with a mouth slight open. She look really really surprise. Cute.

"Are you serious ??? Don't play with my feelings Lisa ," She shook her head like convincing herself that I'm just joking but I cupped her face once again. I look at her with a serious face to indirectly say to her that I'm telling the truth.

"I am serious Jennie. I like you too.," A tear escaped from her left eye as she pulled me into a tight hug. I hug her back as tight as hers.

"I still can't believe that you like me Nini. If this is a dream please don't ever wake me up.," She push me lightly so she can look at me.

"This is reality Lili... You.... Me.... Like each other. ," she chuckled and I can't help but to giggled, kiss her forehead and hug her again.

I decided to spend the rest of the night in her room tonight. I still don't want to end this wonderful night with her. Were both lying down in her bed facing the cilling with an awkward atmosphere surround the room.

"I - ahmm... g-goodnight Nini ," I break the silence and look at her.

"A-ahh yeah.. goodnight Lili.. ," she said and I heard her left a deep sigh before closing her eyes.

I position my body to my leftside so I can face and look at her sleeping figure. You look so beautiful Jennie even your sleeping.

I didn't notice that I'm now moving closer to her now. I slowly put my head to her right shoulder and snake my  right hand to her right arm, like I'm hugging her arm. It feel so relaxing being by her side.

I feel her body tensed by my sudden action, but I just snuggle more in the crook of her neck. Eventually she became relax again and place her head above my head.

A few more minutes I feel her breath became slow and light, she's sleeping now. I try to sleep myself too as I close my eyes again. I let myself to be swayed away by my sleepiness, but before I could lost myself a realization came to my mind....

I am so lucky to be in Jennie's side before the end of the day.

SANA ALL !

~L U N A