imessage
bil
merry christmas 🖤
merry christmas 🥰
sent with effects
also when can i give u
ur gift??
r u back in la?
cause i'm not home rn
and then i'm busy this week
no i'm not
just lmk when you're
free
ok
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"mads you have to make cookies, you do it every year" sebas says
we're all in his families living. sebas is probably the rich boy in the group, even though his mom thinks he's a fuck up she still spoils the kid to death.
this was also a yearly thing. today's different though, logan and billie aren't here which would've been better. but since bil and i broke up that changed. also logan just distances her from the whole group even though her and elias are back together. they've also been on and off the past month.
"exactly, you bake them and we decorate" emi explains "why is this year different?"
"it's not, i'm just not in the mood to bake"
"that's cause you're sad" elias points out
"dude, i'll bake with you cheer up" ricardo looks up at me from laying in my lap "she's not worth simping over"
"she is so," i pout and play with his hair "get up let's go"
"yes! let's go!" sebas shouts "which christmas movie?"
"let's start with the grinch"
"are you okay?" ricardo ask as we reach the kitchen
"yea i'm fine, don't worry" i fake a smile
"you might have grown up with them but i know you way better than them. what's going on in that small head of yours" he sits on the counter
"she was suppose to be here" i sigh "i'll be fine though"
"come here" he has open arms "don't tell anyone i offered to hug you"
"i would never" i hold on to his lower back
"love you tiny"
"okay but we're literally like the same height" i look up at him
"that's why you're looking up to me right? shut the fuck up"
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imessage
bil
dec 26, 1:58
i just wanna lyk i still like you and that's not gonna change i can promise you that . but you wanna wait on this relationship until i'm ready to come out right? and i get that cuz u don't like lowkey stuff or whatever but imma be ready soon promise . i'm sorry i'm making u go thru this or whatever but i already lost you and it's sucks cuz i didn't want that to happen at all and i just let that happen :/ . i'm sorry and i love you ... don't forget that
my feelings for you still remain the same. i'll wait for you, i told you before that i would. it's not that i don't like the lowkey stuff, it's just i don't know how to do it. idk how to be lowkey if that makes sense. don't be sorry, you really don't need to be. if anything i'm sorry. you didn't lose me, just know YOU still have my heart. i love you way more bub, i promise you that
okay 🥺💕
