long chapter, enjoy <3
billies pov
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it's the next night, and i'm on my way to madisons place. this whole thing is fucked up. a couple days ago kenz, a girl madison talked to before me told me that her and bella kissed. which fucked up my head completely.
the trust i had for her, is gone. to be honest i don't think it was ever there because i always thought her and bella were something more.
i text madison that i'm outside and she responds with k. i'm not mentally prepared for what's going to happen, i don't even know what's going to happen.
"hey" she says as she gets in the car
"sup," i lock my phone, putting it in the cup holder "what do we even need to talk about mads?"
she sighs, she looks hurt. i'm at the point where i wish we could take back the love we gave each other. we should've stayed friends. we should've stayed in the relationships we were already in. everything so different now.
"i'm trying to communicate with you. it's like you leave when shit gets hard and i've told you before i want you, all of you. the good the bad whatever it takes and you don't get that. i've told you PLENTY of times i'll distant myself from her and i did. i did it because you felt away about it and i wasn't gonna lose you over something so small"
she looks down and from the corner of my eyes i can see a tear stream down her face.
"it's literally the same thing with que, but the difference is he actually liked you. i've never felt that way about bella and she's never felt that way about me. you don't like her for thinking she likes me but yet you talk to kenz and that girl literally had a whole crush on me billie. it's like you're not trusting what i'm saying"
i don't even know what to say, i don't even know if i believe what she's saying.
"i didn't leave. i was hurt i needed sometime to myself and stuff. i texted you but you're the one that left me on read which i'm glad you did actually cause i needed space and stuff..."
"and i told you before you didn't have to distant yourself from her i'm not choosing your friends and i'm not gonna tell you that you can't hang out w her. and que is different though, he's like respectful and knows boundaries bella doesn't. she liked you and you can say she didn't or she never has but i know she has she tries getting at everyone kenz said . and yea she had a crush on you but that was before i even knew you and she told me she had a crush on you but she doesn't now she has a girlfriend and i know kenz wouldn't do anything with you if we were talking but bella she would. you were with bella yesterday laying in her bed!"
i raise my voice a bit
"probably with her but i'm not trippin that's fine. if you wanna do that you can i don't care it's cool but like it's not that i'm not trusting what you're saying i'm just not trusting her when you're with her. she's full on gay madison. and you slept in her bed so like what makes me think you guys haven't done nothing or she hasn't tried doing something with you ? like for example lex. i'm with lex right at her house and we're hanging out and i'm laying on her bed! with her there with me what are you gonna think? you're gonna think we're doing something right because we were a thing for along time before am i right?"
madison pov
it's funny how she says que is respectful and knows boundaries, but how? how can he be that when no one knows we were even dating?
fuck. i hate this. i hate how she's raising her voice at me, the more she does the more tears come out my eyes. everything is different when it's me. how isn't que and bella equivalent to each other?
