The unwanted power

Chaptr Twelve

"Terrified? Why are you terrified?" Devan asks me.

"I hate fire, it never does anything right. Fire destroys, and destroys and you can't stop it. It never leaves you alone. Once you start it it could end up destroying everything you love. And you might not even get to say goodbye."
I turn away from Devan trying not to let him see the pain in my eyes.

I'm not sure why I'm telling him this but I am. I don't think he'll really understands why I don't want fire to be my power. I wouldn't mind if I had some other power like water, storm, flight, or something like that. Something that's not dangerous. Something that can  be controlled.

"What do you mean by never getting to say goodbye?" He asks coming to my side.

"I lost someone in a fire, and I didn't get to say goodbye."

"I'm sorry lily." He says. I don't  want to continue this conversation because I know it will bring back the pain I felt the day I lost her.

"It's okay. But that's one of the reasons I'm terrified. I don't want to be the one who starts the fire, that could make someone else lose someone close to them. I don't want anyone to go trough that."

"You might not believe me but I know how you feel. I have lost people close to me as well. But you have to learn how to control it. You've got to trust me on this. If you don't learn how to use it it will take over you. Please just trust me like you did last time. Please don't stop trusting me." Devan says, looking like he's about to cry.

"How do I learn to control them without hurting people?"

Devan looks at me, "I have a way, that I used when I had to learn. I know that this is going to be hard, and there is a small chance you and someone else will get hurt. It will be worth it in the end, so please just try to learn how to control the fire."

"Where would I practice? There is so many things that I could light on fire and so many people I could hurt, if I'm to close." I say trying to think of any way that I could get out of this. I know that I should learn more about this, but I really don't want to be that close to fire.

"I have the perfect place, meet me here tomorrow at 6:00 am. And we'll get to work." Devan says turning around and walking away. I turn around to go and ask him what place he's thinking of but he's gone.

Should I go? I don't know what to think. Maybe I should ask my dad? No I can't tell my dad, he will freak out and he probably won't let me go- if I decide to go- I could tell Kyle. Should I tell Kyle? If I do tell him I could get his his opinion, that's sounds like a good idea. I'm going tell Kyle about all of this.

I walk over to his house and I knock on the door, he answers it. "Hey lil, whats up?"

"I was wondering if you wanted to take a walk on the beach?" He answers me saying sure. Then runs inside to grab his shoes.

"So, can you believe what happened at swim today? It was insane! I have a small burn on my foot from when I slipped, and kinda fell in. It was so weird! Like it was really hot water. You were in there for longer then I was are you okay? You didn't look hurt? I tried to find you after coach kicked us out but you were no where to be seen. Where did you go?" Kyle says.

He doesn't ever stop taking which is something I like about him, there is never an awkward moment of silence. But he does now when to stop and listen. There is a reason he's my best friend. And the fact that we've known each other since we were six.

"It was definitely weird. Kyle.. I know what happened. It was because of m.."
I cut my self off. I can't tell Kyle! He'll want to try and help and I'll end up hurting him and I know that he'll  never leave it alone. I'm not bringing him Into to this. I'm not going to let fire hurt any one else that I love.

"It was because of? What?" Kyle asks.

"Oh, umm I think it was because of some sort of broken pipe. Or it could've just been a prank?" I try to keep it light, I don't know what to say because I know that it happened because of me, so how can I say exactly what I think? cause I think I'm the  one who did it.

"You're probably right. Oh well I guess it doesn't really matter right? Well just have to practice on are own until it gets figured out. Speaking of swim do you want to go swimming? We could race or maybe we could try surfing again, I promise this time I won't knock you off of your board." He says with a laugh.

"I don't really feel like swimming at the moment. I want to go home, and be alone for a little bit. Give everything a minute to sink in." I say turning around and walking towards my house.

Kyle doesn't run and try to catch up, he kinda just stands there not sure what to do. I feel bad but don't want him to see how much pain I am in. I want to be alone, why I thought it would be a good idea to tell him I don't know. I had to lie to my best friend to keep him safe. Why is this happening to me?

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Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I kept forgetting. Thank you for reading! Please feel free to tell me ways I can Improve my story.
-Annamusic22