The unwanted power

Chapter Sixteen

I get home around 7:30. When I walk inside my dad is sitting on the couch watching a show and Adain is at the table eating breakfast. "How was your walk?" My dad asks pausing his show.

"It was good. Really pretty. I walked to a place I've never been before. Definitely think I'll go there again." I say setting my bag down.

"Sounds fun. You'll have to show me the new place you found someday." My dad says smiling.

"I will." I head over to the table and give Adain a hug. I then go and sit down to watch with my dad.

"Has coach said anything about swim practice?" I ask my dad joining him on the couch.

"I haven't heard from him lately. If he doesn't call in the next few days I'll call him and ask when he plans on starting up again. Sound good?"

"Sound great! Thanks dad." After sitting and talking with my dad for while I go into my room and lie down. All of the thoughts of these past few days come rushing to my head. Sometimes I wish they'd go away but another part of me likes to think about it. Because it makes my brain work and gives me an opportunity to figure out how to get rid of this power.

I am going to go back and work with Devan again tomorrow. In all honesty I'm scared, and he was right. I really don't want to have a flame appear on my hand. I don't want to learn how to use this. But he makes it sound like I have to; And in reality I know that I have to I just don't want to.

Throughout the rest of the day I keep rethinking what I'm doing and if I really should be learning how to control fire. And I keep trying to convince myself I don't need to but, then I remember how dangerous it is and that if I don't learn it might come out at a time I don't expect and hurt people I love.

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The next morning I wake up at 5:30 a little later then last time but I was exhausted. My dad is already up, so I tell him that I'm going on another walk and will be back soon. By the time I'm out of my house it's already 5:50 so I run up to the meeting place and get there around 6:10 thankfully Devan hasn't left yet.

"Hey, sorry I'm late, I woke up later then expected today."

He smiled. "It's alright, I sleep in all the time. You ready to go?"

"I guess" I say smiling back. We once again don't really talk on the way over. It feels kinda awkward bu I don't want to say anything because i feel like it will make it even more awkward. We get to sunset cove and I set my backpack down and sit next to it.

"Okay so today we're really going to do the same thing we did yesterday. But today I want you to really really focus on pulling heat towards your hand. You don't even necessarily need to think of the hottest you've ever been you just need to think of heat."

I want to say that it's not that easy! That it might be easy for him cause he's not scared of it but that won't help me in anyway so I just say: "okay." I go over and sit by the small pool of water and close my eyes.

I try and think of heat running from my core to my hand but when I feel a small prickle on my hand I start to panic and everything goes cold. Why do I have to be so afraid!

After trying over twenty times I give up and lay flat on my back.

"I think we've done enough for today. We'll have to come back tomorrow." Devan hands me a hand and helps me up.

"Tomorrow it is" I say. We walk back in complete silence and once we get to the meeting spot we barley even say goodbye. Slightly angry I stomp back to the house and go sit in my backyard and read.

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The next three days go exactly the same as they did the two days before, we walk to sunshine cove in silence and then I try to do the exact same thing.(try to get a small flame to go on my hand) Each time I got close to getting a spark I got scared and it would go out. I was starting to get frustrated.

Why isn't Devan helping me? He said that he knew how to help me control it! All he is doing is telling me the same thing over and over again. Each day, I felt like I was getting worse. I kept getting scared.

On the fourth day things went a little different. "Okay, I'm done! I haven't learned anything and I keep failing, why are we doing the same thing over and over again?! Im supposed to be learning how to control it not use it!Nothing I do is helpings, I feel like it's getting worse" I shout.

Devan looks a little taken back by what I said. It's as though he didn't think I'd ever say something like that. "I... I guess that we should be done for today. Tomorrow we'll try something different."

"Okay good! I'm going home." I grab my bag and without saying goodbye stomp trough the cave and speed walk home. "Ahh! This is so stupid!" I scream, I just want my life to go back to normal. Ever since I got this power I've lost ever thing. I can't swim cause We no longer have a pool, I can't swim in the ocean cause last time I almost drown. I'm still terrified of water, I barley sleep at night cause of my nightmares. I've stopped spending time with Kyle, and I don't know how to talk to him without telling him about my power.

Why has everything changed? I want to go back to normal. Why did this happen to me?

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I finally updated again. Sorry it took me so long. Thank you for sticking with me and reading my book! You guys are awesome!
-Annamusic22