with all my heart (Idol!Tanjiro X Idol!Zenitsu Fanfic)

Chapter 3 - Out of Impulse

Tanjiro’s POV

I wake up crying, panting and sweating from such a horrible nightmare about a kid that I don’t even remember… but I could tell that this was real. I could tell that I felt this before. This unbearable emotional pain. I keep muttering the words “he left me” over and over again without knowing why I’m even saying it. It was like I acted out of impulse. Anyway, this kid I forgot… he must’ve been pretty important to me.

I stand up and look at the time. It was already about 10 AM. I should go and get prepared. I had thought of that but… what was I getting prepared for? Why was I preparing? I had no meetings, no conferences or even any thoughts of working today. I felt like it was just going to be one of those lazy days. I disregard these thoughts and start to take of my clothes and take a shower.

While I was in the shower, I was still thinking about who that blonde boy was and why was I remembering him now. Especially that dream. Why was I dreaming about some blonde kid leaving me? Was it because I saw a blonde boy last week?? No no no no no way. I can’t just be overthinking so much because I saw someone blonde. Yeah, that’s impossibl-.

My sentence got cut off when visions start to suddenly render in my head. Visions about the playground, about the promise, and most importantly, about the blonde boy. These were the things I saw in the dream. Him holding my hand, him saying he loves me, him saying I was cute. Thinking about those again made me sad. Then tears started to stream down my face. Why was I crying again? Why was the emotional pain coming back? My heart was starting to hurt because of this. I grabbed the area where my heart is and I suddenly whispered a sentence out of impulse. “Zenitsu. Please come back for me…”

My eyes shot up and my mouth opened as I realized what I just said. Who was Zenitsu?? The idol?? Was that him or someone else with the same name?? If it was, then why would an idol, with such popularity be connected to me?? I just kept on asking and asking questions to myself to try to remember everything that had happened in the past.

About an hour has passed and I decided to finally stop thinking and get out of the shower. I was in there for a long time doing some thinking about that blonde boy and my past with him. The time I spent there was so long, that my hands have started wrinkling because of the water. I put on some clothes, got my things, and started to head to the café again.

I arrive at the café and take a seat. Only a few people were here. Normally, the café would be crowded and crawling with people but now, it had almost like 4 people. Was there some kind of event going on? Kanao comes up to my table and takes a seat in front of me. I speak first.

“Oh. Kanao! I thought you couldn’t sit around when you’re on your shift?”

“Yeah, about that… since there isn’t much people, my boss gave some of us an early break.” That’s kind of……surprising. Usually, the boss would be strict about this but… I shouldn’t pry into other people’s work environments.

“Nice! Isn’t that great?”

“It is really, but…”

“But??” I know I said that I shouldn’t pry but I was starting to wonder why I smelt a pint of disappointment around her.

“I just think that the boss was sad or somewhat displeased when there were just few people.” Now, that she basically opened the topic, I shouldn’t have to hesitate to ask her.

“I saw that too… why is that? Is there some sort of event going on?” After I asked that, she looked at me with such a shocked face. It was like she had seen a ghost.

“You don’t know?”

“What do you mean?” I really didn’t know anything. I didn’t even check the news when I woke up. There really was an event?

“It’s the Thundering Twins’ live concert today!! I thought you of all people should know about that!!” She practically yelled at me. My eyes just shot open when I heard that and felt so annoyed that I didn’t know about that.

“R-really?!”

“Yes!!” I felt really stupid for not knowing about this…I’m really disappointed for myself… wait, can I still make it?!

“If I bought tickets now, can I still make it??” I ask her with a lot of hope. Please!

“Yes but, I’m afraid that it’s all sold out…” All my hope was suddenly shattered.

“Oh. How unfortunate.”

“I-if you want, I can get you a front row seat?” I suddenly just jumped at that question.

“R-really??”

“I can do that you know!” She said that in a way that was basically saying “Don’t underestimate me!” I chuckled in my mind at that.

“Then please!! Please! I’ll repay you in any way that I can!” I ask her, desperately. I didn’t even know why I wanted to go there so much.

She pulls out her phone and calls someone. I was still begging her even though she was at the phone. She then looks at me with a death glare and then signals me to quiet down and wait. I immediately shut up and sit up straight. THAT WAS SCARYYY!!! If looks could kill, I’d be dead right now!

She hangs up and says thank you. She turns and looks at me with an excited face. Did she get it??

“Good news, I reserved you a seat!” My jaw suddenly dropped and came over to her and held her hands.

“Thank you so much!!” My eyes started to water because of the joy I felt when I heard that.

“Y-yeah! No problem!!”

“I’ll repay you! What do you want?” I mean I can’t just let this slip by. I’m sure that front row seats are super expensive.

“Oh. Nothing!”

“What?!” I got shocked again because she asked for nothing???

“I said I didn’t want anything!”

“Are you sure?!”

“Yes. In fact, you’ve already repaid me.” She whispered that but I could hear it crystal clear.

“What was that?” I asked her so I could get a meaning to what she said but…

“Nevermind! Just go on ahead to your concert!!”

“O-ok!” I say that as she basically pushes me out of the café. I really can’t thank her enough. I bow and thank her one last time then started to run to the concert. I stop and wonder, why was I so hell-bent in getting to that concert?

I guess I just did it out of impulse.
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Chapter 3 is out!!! I really enjoyed making this chapter!! I hope you enjoyed reading it too! =))