Billie Eilish Imagines~ book 2

●Gone●

Trigger warning: Anxiety attack, self harm, death

Your POV

My friend is still self harming she called me on face time last night and showed me her wrists. Cuts, 18 deep cuts. I had to help her calm down I wanted to come and get her but her abusive dad wasin't having it. She told me if I called 911 that her dad would shoot Billie as soon as he got his hands on her. Billie and I were just cuddling on the couch when my phone rang and I ran to our room. Mia's face appeared tear stained and her eyes were blood shot. "Mia calm down. Breath your okay" she didn't speak. She pulled a gun from her hoodie pocket. "MIA STOP PLEASE I LOVE YOU LIKE A SISTER DON'T LEAVE ME" just like that in a split second she was on the floor of her room blood pouring from her head. I started screaming "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME I SHOULD HAVE PROTECTED HER" Billie ran in "what happened?" I gave her the phone showing Mia's dead body. "Oh my god baby I'm so sorry" I dropped to my knees and bawled. Billie immediately held me close. "Shhh shhh it's okay" "n-no it's-s not It's m-my f-fault" "Don't ever say that y/n it's not your fault" she rocked me back and forth for hours just trying to calm me down but I started hyperventilating "baby what's-" she realized exactly what was happening, an anxiety attack. "Breath y/n your okay match my breathing" "it's all my fault" I kept whispering. "Shhh" she ran her fingers through my hair and it was over. "Are you good?" "Yes and no" "I'll go call 911 okay?" "No Billie he said he would-" "No y/n I have security remember?" "Okay please be safe" "I will. Get some rest" she pulled the blanket up to my chest and put on The Office. I sobbed into the blanket and talked to her. "I love you Mia I hope you rest easy bestie. I'm going to miss you and I will never forget you" I blew a kiss to her in the sky and continued sobbing. Billie came to bed and put her arms around me and and kissed me on the forehead. "It's okay"

A/n~ I wrote this from a sad place in my heart. My friend took her own life May 14th 2020. My friend Lily cut and my friend Maddie and I had to put a stop to it. Also if your wondering why "It's okay" is in italics in the end of the book they are very special words to me.