Why is it so Complicated? - Raura Story

Chapter 16 ( 2 YEARS)

ROSS

It's been 2 years since the accident happened. Many things changed, I left Colorado with my family, we moved to LA, and my hobbies changed. I'm now focused on music and acting. My siblings, our family friend and I started a band called R5. But despite of those changes, three things remained: GUILT, LONELINESS and HATE towards myself. I could imagine me and Laura being happy together if I was not a jerk before. But it's too late... she's gone.

*FLASHBACK*

I'm in the hospital waiting for the doctors to say that she's okay. She's in the emergency room. The doctors have been operating her for almost an hour. I called her parents earlier and now they're here. I saw them crying hard for they know this could be the end of their daughter's life. Her mom, Ellen, turned to me and sent me a glare while walking towards me. I gulped.

Ellen: THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT! IF MY DAUGHTER DIDN'T MET YOU, SHE WOULD BE HERE! SHE WOULD BE SAFE AND HAPPY!

I did not say anything for I knew everything she said was true.

Ellen: GET OUT OF HERE!!! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE EVER AGAIN!!!

I walked out if the hospital not because I was scared of her, I walked out because of embarrassment. Not embarrassment because she shouted at me but because I'm embarrassed that all of this is my fault. I'm ashamed of myself for all of the things I did to hurt Laura.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

And that was the last time I've seen her. I'm not sure if she was alive or not but based on her last condition when I saw her, she's not doing very well. Although, deep inside my heart, I'm still hoping she is alive by now, playing, studying and basically enjoying life... without me. 

I almost forgot to tell you, I also broke up with Megan.

*FLASHBACK*

The day after Laura's incident, I went back to school lonely. My so called "friends" tried cheering me up, saying that it was not my fault, Laura just over-reacted, but it still didn't work. I mean, why would they blame the person who got hurt? It's supposed to be me! I deserve all the guilt, the anger & the hurt because it was all my fault!

When I couldn't take it anymore, I told Megan that I want to talk to her privately.

Megan: "So hey what's up?" She sounded worry.

Ross: I think we should break up.

Megan: Wha-WHAT?! Why?!

Ross: This isn't working! Laura opened my eyes to everything. I like you Megan but I LOVE Laura.

Megan: This is for your own good Ross, OUR own good.