ending scene | l.hc

05

{her}

" i hope we see each other again. "

his voice. his smiles. his charming aura. it keeps rewinding in my head.

i looked at the time.

it was already 2am and i still haven't blinked a sleep. every time i try to close my eyes and sleep, his face is the first thing i see. it seems that he was haunting me. but i couldn't tell if it was a bad thing.

" i hope so, too. "

i wanted to say. i was in shock with what i was thinking. why would i want to see him again? he was a complete stranger who knows my name! and he also saw me in my small breakdown state. he was a stranger who had a few glances of what was really inside me.

pain and sadness.

i shot up from my bed and made myself some coffee. i had no plans of staying up all night but it seems like it will happen.

i slowly walked towards the balcony. i opened the sliding door and calm, cool night breeze instantly welcomed me. i placed my arms over the metal railings, sipping my coffee.

it was beautiful. the cityscapes. it took my breath away. this was the sole reason why i chose this condo in the first place.

but after everything that had happened, i no longer see the beauty in life. it felt like a joke whenever it showed me something beautiful when it already showed me its ugly side. the grimace, the sorrow, the pain, everything dark and hollow.

i rubbed my palm against my arm when i started to feel cold. the breeze up here was a little cooler. then i remembered him again.

he used to place his jacket atop my thin long sleeved blouse. that green, old jacket. it always reminded me of him. a lot of things reminded me of him. and i didn't want to continue in life if it means forgetting him and everything he had caused upon me, even if it had pain and sadness underneath.

tears started streaming down my face again, like it never went dry. i reached for the glowing moon above me and felt its entirety as i closed my eyes.

" i still wish you were here. "

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