ending scene | l.hc

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{her}

the morning breeze was a little colder than what i expected. the withered, orange leaves started falling and it was the most beautiful scenery you could see along the road. but despite the beauty of the morning, i couldn't help but feel sad. as i was here again, facing him, for the last time.

after reading his letter, my heart wrenched in pain. in guilt and remorse. i wasn't the reason why he did it to himself, but if only i knew the reason, i could have stayed and helped him. because before i became his first love, i was his friend. i was his friend who vowed to be with him at all times.

during those times when he was still pursuing me, he was already suffering that pain within him. but i was too distracted to even give a damn about him. knowing about it made me feel more guilty.

but, i need to stop living in the past, they say.

" i just want to say sorry. for not knowing you had trouble within you. i should have known. " i kept my tears from falling.

" t-thank you for loving me, in a way i couldn't believe. " i bit my lip as it trembled violently.

" thank you for everything, alkin. " i ran my fingers across the glass that enclosed the space. seeing his face on the picture made me wanna crumble and cry. but i kept it all in.

a hand suddenly caught mine and squeezed it. its warmth calmed me, so i released a large amount of air. i looked at the direction of the person holding my hand and it directly gave me a small smile.

" let's go? " i said, tugging our intertwined hands. he only nodded and turned around.

•••

as we were walking outside, our hands never broke off. a smile crept in my face when i stared at our hands.it brought butterflies and my heart skipped a beat every second.

he brought me to another restaurant. it served pizzas and burgers.

" you always find good places to eat. " i said, as we sat down. he lightly chuckled, getting the menu from the table.

" i want to bring you to the best restaurants and cafés before. . . " he trailed off. my hand was on its way to get the menu but i stopped, waiting for his words to finish. his eyes was on me, so i raised a brow, signalling for him to continue.

" before i finally become b-busy. " he said, avoiding my gaze. my brows furrowed at what he said. what did he meant? wait. . .

" are you telling me that you're--

" i will debut in three months. " he cut me off my sentence. my lashes batted in shock as i tried to understand his words.

when it finally sank in, i placed a hand over my mouth as shock overcame me.

" oh my gosh! congratulations! " i exclaimed. i wanted to jump and scream in happiness but i kept it all in so i wouldn't embarass myself and him. he smiled widely and i couldn't keep myself from smiling too.

" you promise to be on my debut stage? " he asked, which caught me off guard. i remembered that one thought i had one time. i want to see him on stage, with the people who adores him so much. and i am one of them.

because i adored him before he became the haechan everybody knows. i loved him first.

" of course. "

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