Paralyzed (CITRUS AU)

Chapter 15

A/N: Woah!! 2 chapters in a row huh?

Mei's POV:

It's been about a week since our kiss. Yuzu and I are closer then ever but sadly we haven't been able to do that date we promised to do. I told myself to not let it bother me but I'm still getting more anxious by the day. Maybe we can go out tomorrow? Tomorrow is Saturday so that should be fine right??

"Mei calm down, you don't usually act like this! Gosh what has that girl done to me!"

I took a deep breath and decided I'll ask Yuzu to go on a date tomorrow.

"Jeez! I'm not used to being the asker! If anything I'm the one who gets asked!"

I shook off my thoughts and went back to what I was doing. I was currently washing the dishes since it was my turn that night. We just ate dinner, and we all were about to head to bed.

While I was washing the dishes, I felt a hand on my shoulder and saw it was Mother, "Mei sweetie, I'm going to head to bed. Have a good night."

"Oh! Goodnight Mother."I replied.

I finished the dishes and walked into my room. I saw Yuzu playing around with her guitar. The light melody that she played easily soothed me. I sat next to her and politely listened to her dabble around with the guitar strings.

After some moments I heard her put her guitar down and look at me, "Mei? What's wrong? Usually, you have something to say by now."

"Jeesh, am I that easy to figure out?" I wondered, "Well I was wondering if you wanted to go out tomorrow? Like that date we talked about some time ago. It's fine if you don't want to yet, though!

Yuzu chuckled, "Mei, of course we can go on a date tomorrow. I was actually planning to ask tonight too!"

My shoulders relaxed at the response, "See Mei! You had nothing to worry about."

I scooted closer to her and asked, "Okay, where would you like to go tomorrow?"

Yuzu put her fingers on her chin in a thinking manner and said, "Leave it to me! I'll plan the whole thing!"

"What! No, Yuzu I simply cannot let you do that by yourself." I said.

"But Mei... I want to! Trust me, this is the least I can do." Yuzu stated.

I sighed at the idea and finally nodded my head in approval. I opened up the curtains of our room balcony door and stared at the view.

"Would it be a good time to explain?" I contemplated.

"H-hey Yuzu, would you want to talk for a little out at the balcony?" I asked.

Yuzu nodded and followed me outside the balcony. I saw Yuzu look at me in the corner of her eye and then she asked, "Seriously Mei, that date topic was definitely not all you were worried about. You can talk to me you know."

My eyes widened in shock, "How can she know that I have more on my mind?"

After gathering all my thoughts, I finally said, "Yuzu. Do you remember that night we talked about giving each other time to explain about... everything?"

"Of course Mei. You can have all the time you need to be ready." Yuzu stated.

The moonlight was reflecting onto her emerald eyes, and I couldn't help but gaze into the pupils and all I saw was complete honesty and care. I heaved a deep breath to control my obvious shaking, I was mentally ready but my body might think otherwise.

I twiddled my thumbs and began, "My Mother died when I was six years old. It's sad to say that I wasn't really phased by it either. She wasn't really the wholesome motherly figure that most people would assume she would've been."

I stopped to breathe when the cold air washed over my skin, I shivered and then felt a warm arm embrace me. Completely blocking out the cold air from my skin.

I exhaled and continued, "My father didn't take it well of course. From that day forward he wasn't the same and you can say I was a neglected child. He would be constantly traveling around the world leaving his helpless daughter with her controlling grandfather..."I felt her tighten her embrace, and I continued, "I haven't seen him in nine years."

Yuzu pulled back briefly and said, "What? Nine years?! How could he just leave you and not reach out to you?!"

"He has tried to reach me plenty of times... I've never paid attention to it, though. I focused on my home education and learned what my grandfather wanted me to know.."After some moments I continued,"Do you remember when I said that I had two friends when I was being home schooled?"

Yuzu nodded, "Yes, Himeko and someone else you didn't want to mention."

"Her name is Sara. The 'someone' that I didn't want to mention. She..." I gulped.

Yuzu noticed this and said, "Mei.. You don't have to tell me. I can wait."

I shook my head and continued, "She was my first love. Well my first everything. First date, first kiss, first time.." I closed my eyes, fluttering away the upcoming tears and continued, " One day she wanted me to tell my grandfather our relationship, and I refused. Obviously that didn't go so well, and we broke up. I never saw her again after. Is it wrong to say that to this day I regret what I said and did?"

Yuzu shook her head, "Of course not Mei... You didn't want to tell your grandfather and she should've respected that."

I grabbed her hand and squeezed, she nodded her head for me to continue and I did, "What's funny is that shortly my grandfather did end up finding out about our relationship. It's not like that mattered though, we weren't in a relationship anymore. But to that day my grandfather barely let me outside or let me associate with others except for Himeko. He was so harsh towards me.. for a while it almost felt like I wasn't living my own life and I was so tired of it. I believe I told you how he would never let me pursue my dreams while in his household, well he actually wants me to be the heir of the school. But I just couldn't.. I couldn't lose anything else that was ME. That's why I moved out, I was actually surprised that my Father reached out to your Mother and worked out an arrangement."

Yuzu looked at me with sorrow in her eyes, "Mei.. I'm beyond happy that you can tell me something so personal. I'm glad you were able to do something for yourself. Man! If I knew you, back then I would've broken you out of that prison you called a home!"We shared a laugh and she continued," I want you to know that I promise that I won't leave you like she did. Regardless if you tell anyone or not, I'm always going to be here for you."

My hand squeezed hers while I tried so hard to control my tears, but instead of cooperating with me they flowed freely. I nuzzled my face into Yuzu's shoulder, letting the sobs out. She wrapped both her arms around my waist and tightened the embrace.

Once again Yuzu repeated two words that can make a raging storm become peaceful,"I promise."

A/N: Done! Once again please make sure to vote and comment any necessary feedback OR words of encouragement! Much is obliged! This chapter was hard to write because I'm not very good at angst. Was it good? Hopefully it was! Next chapter may or may not be about Yuzu's explanation! Stay tuned!!