Hunting Season (Kelly Severide Love Story)

A Man's Legacy

"I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU HIDE FROM THE ONE AND CLOSE YOUR EYES TO THE ONE, MESS UP AND LIE TO THE ONE THAT YOU LOVE"

It's been a week since the whole Severide and Hope situation and even though I am back at Firehouse 51, I have kept my distance from him. Only in his company when we are on calls but no words have been uttered between us. 

Not for his lack of trying but he knows that I need space and I am not emotionally ready to deal with him right now.

"Hey" he catches me outside the locker room, "hey" I mutter, not trying to have a conversation. "Cruz already did the inventory so you don't have to worry" he informs me, "okay, cool, now if you'll excuse me" I walk past him. 

"Is this how it's going to be from now on?" He follows me but I ignore him. 

"Are you ever going to talk to me?" He calls out, "I'm talking to you right now" I comment, not turning around while I stop at my locker. Not paying him any attention when I open it and start to put my stuff inside. 

"You know what I mean" he gently closes my locker door so I have no reason to ignore him. 

"No, I don't" I glare at him, "I never understand anything you say because they always turn out to be lies" I snap.

"Liv-" he tries again, "I can't do this right now" I sigh, trying to leave the locker room. 

"Can you at least give me a chance to show you how sorry I am?" He requests, "I know you're sorry" I turn to face him, "but I also know that I don't really care right now" I spin around and rush off, he doesn't try and stop me right now. 

I have to be angry with him or else it will absolutely kill me to remember how much he hurt me.

It really took him a matter of hours to replace me so easily, how can you do that to someone you supposedly love?

The worst part is all I want to do is be with him but I don't know how I am going to get over this.

With Hope of all people, he knew how much that would hurt me. He was looking to cause maximum damage and now he doesn't know how to repair it.

Neither do I.

"Hey" Brett walks over to me as I enter the living room, I know she has been feeling so guilty since Hope was her friend and she brought Hope into the firehouse but I hold nothing against her. 

Brett did nothing wrong. 

"I just wanted to apologise for Hope again" she has apologised so many times. "Sylvie" I stop her from apologising again, "it's not your fault" I remind her, "I know but I feel so guilty because she was only here because of me" she replies.

"It's not your fault" I repeat, "what she did is on her alone" I point out.

"So we're good?" She questions, "we were never not good" I hug her, "oh thank God" she sighs in relief.

"Oh I am jumping in on this" Gabby throws herself into our hug, Kidd joining shortly after as we hold our group hug. The presence of the girls makes me feel less lonely, I may not have Severide anymore but I have their love.

"How you holding up?" Kidd asks when we pull away.

"I'm still standing" I answer, "I just don't want to think about it or talk about it" I let them know. "Okay, you got it" the girls nod, "we will talk about anything else" Kidd states.

"Thank you" I appreciate them listening to me.

"How's your dad doing?" I ask Gabby, "he's stable" she answers, "apparently he jumped in front of a knife-wielding maniac to protect someone else" she informs me. "No surprise there" I comment, "heroism is a Dawson trait" I add.