To someone special

CHAPTER 2

So yeah today is my darling friends' birthday... so Happy birthday to you bbg<3 

I was welcomed to this bright day by none other than the sunlight which was peeking through my bedroom curtains.

I am generally an early riser(I don't sleep at all) so I don't bother to keep an alarm. As I pulled off the curtains further, I realized that the day was very bright and the air was breezing everywhere making the broken twigs and dried leaves on the ground to move according to the gust of air. I really admire nature more than anything coz it is the only natural gift we received in our lives and the most fascinating thing here is, it will never avoid us or fade away or betray us or asks us to love it in return and I am sure that even after so much of damage we do, it will never run away showing its back like we humans do.

Running away from reality had brought so many bad memories back into my mind that I have to face to the other direction from the window to avoid crying session early in the morning and I don't want to cry today at least as I am going to talk to my love not rather officially but yes virtually. A smile appeared on my face when I thought about him and I found that there was so much time for me to get ready to college. I wore my jogging clothes and started off my day and started to jog as usual with my ear buds stuck to my ears. There was a time when I used to meet my friends early in the garden and now, I am all alone to myself and a small sad smile appeared on my face.

I returned back to home and found that the maid was already preparing breakfast and I greeted her and took the juice, drank and headed to my room and in just 20mins I was ready for college. I took the letter in my hand and put it safely in my bag and got downstairs. When I reached the dining room, I found that the whole family was over there and everyone turned towards me when I reached near and I halted my steps. An eerie silence surrounded the room when I saw them and my family(grand pa, mom, brother-so called family) were expecting me to join them. I just went to kitchen took tiffin box and thought of skipping breakfast today. As I was walking out of dining hall my mom said " You need to do your breakfast sweetie. I found that you have been skipping your meals regularly. If you want, we will leave so that you can have your breakfast " she taunted me.

I just wanted to laugh when she said "sweetie" but I know why they have been acting all good towards me and worried about my meals.

" You need not to worry about my meals and I assure you that I will not die if I skip meals or at least until I wanted to die myself " I said as a matter-of -fact. Tears were streaming down my eyes like a river flow but I am least bothered about it now.

I reached my car and said the driver that I will drive myself and left the house.

As I reached the college, I found that his car is already parked and to my guess he was already in the canteen having fun with his friends. I went directly to his class with the hoodie on so that I will not be caught by anyone of his friends or classmates. I know his desk where he usually sits, so I went there and opened the desk and put the letter over there with a grin and left from there asap. To my success there was no one in the class when I entered and a girl was entering the class with her concentration solely on her mobile phone in her hand. I took that as my chance and left from there to my class and removed the hoodie on my way and stuck it in my bag. As I sat in my desk, I released a sigh of relief and thought how to see him while he is reading the letter and I am sure he will read it during break time.

I was eagerly waiting for the break time and to my fate the clock was moving in very slow pace and I am becoming restless each passing minute. As the clock stuck 1pm, I hurriedly left the classroom not even bothering that my lecturer was there standing giving us some instructions about the assignment he gave. I ran to the canteen and was waiting for them to appear there so that I can understand what exactly happened after he read my letter. My heart was beating rapidly thinking that he might have not sat there or someone else could have taken the letter instead of him etc.. and I don't want it to happen in anyway.

To my surprise the group showed up finally and Sunayn too was there with them and he was very normal as usual without any hint of confusion or disbelief written on his face.

This made my heart to break a little and I had my lunch looking at him continuously as I was hungry and I missed my breakfast too.

Soon I found him excusing himself from the group with his bag which is not expected. This gave me a hope that he is going to read the letter somewhere else and I got up from my seat in a swift motion and followed him slowly without his knowledge.

I found him sitting under the tree which he always prefers to sit here in this garden. He was deep in thoughts and as I expected he never opened his bag nor any book to read my letter. He just sat there as if enjoying the nature to himself. I was on a verge of tearing up seeing him there and not reading my letter. The thought of rejection from him always scared me but now he doesn't even want to read my letter. Maybe he had thrown the letter somewhere without even opening it I thought. He sat there for few more minutes and he got a call and he left from there while speaking on the phone. While talking on phone he walked past me but never acknowledged my presence. Who would acknowledge a trash like me I thought sadly and my tears never stopped? I thought of leaving college but I want to meet my only friend in this college Nidhu. Yes, I have one friend in this huge college and we met for the first time in an interactive session. She is a bubbly and cute at the same time. She talks a lot and always insists me to speak more but I just give her the information which is necessary and skip the remaining by giving stupid excuses. Her boyfriend always interrupts us and I don't mind it. He gives me some kind of a look which will never settle well in my heart. I think like he will cheat her some or the other day but I don't want to voice out my thoughts. Maybe I am overthinking after whatever happened to me in the past so I just let things happen in its own way and she doesn't know about my love towards Sunayn and I don't want to tell her too. I reached the class and started searching for Nidhu and she has many friends so it is difficult to find her in these groups of people. I found someone place their hand on my shoulder and I instantly tensed up not knowing who.