To someone special

CHAPTER 3

I didn't turn back and stood still as if my body is paralyzed.

" Hey you, it's me. So how was your day? '' she asked casually and her eyes narrowed as she saw my eyes and now her excited face turned into concerned one.

" What's wrong? Did anyone hurt you? Did you cry all along? Oh god! I am such a bad friend. I don't even know about my friend's situation and I am chilling around with everyone here '' she bombarded with questions and blamed herself for being ignorant.

" Oh my god! Did anyone tell you how much you talk? '' I asked her instead.

" Stop it already and tell me what's wrong" she fired back placing her both hands on my shoulders.

" Its nothing Nidhu. I am just having a little headache and my eyes became red coz some dust particles entered due to heavy wind around. That's it '' I answered with confidence so that she will buy my lie easily without much effort.

" Okay, but you seem off. If you say it's nothing then I believe but if it is something else you know you can tell me " she said with a much caring tone.

I just wanted to hug her tightly, tell her everything happened and cry my heart out. But I know I am not ready to tell about my love to anyone right now.

I just gave her a reassuring smile and started to do my work as usual but my mind kept dozing off to Sunayn and the letter I have given him but I don't want to think much now.

As it is the last class I can go home peacefully now, lock myself in my room and cry for hours without any interruption. I smiled at my own fate and bid bye to Nidhu and left to my car.

I went to my room and did the only thing which I have been avoiding since lunch time. I cried as soon as I hit my bed not even bothering to change my clothes. I don't know how long I kept crying coz when I opened my eyes, I found myself curled in my bed and it was already dark outside. I went to freshen up and when I saw myself in the mirror, I saw a broken girl with bloodshot eyes staring at me. I don't want to look at myself more and took a long shower and entered to my room with a pounding headache.

I got down the stairs and made myself coffee to stop this bloody pounding in my head. As I gulped coffee, I found my tears streaming down to my cheeks and I wiped them quickly. After finishing the coffee, I switched on the TV and kept changing channels not sure what to see and the time was already half past 11. I took food and heated it and ate it silently rewinding all the events of today.

I decided that I couldn't attend the college with this deadly feeling inside my heart and I am never going to write any letter again to him. I want to skip college but I have this assignment to submit in the class so I decided to go to college after lunch directly.

As decided in the night, I wasted time in the morning did my morning chores and entered the kitchen to have my lunch as I skipped my breakfast already by wasting time. As I entered in the living room I found him(my brother) laughing with his girlfriend. I just ignored him and went past them to feed myself. But he held my wrist and I glared at him for stopping me. " Meet Veda my girlfriend. And Veda she is my sister about whom I told you earlier " he said her and she just gave me a fake smile and extended her hand towards me saying " Glad to meet you " but I don't want anyone feeling glad meeting me. I just ignored them and had my lunch in the kitchen itself and disappeared towards stairs even before they can see me. I just took my bag with my assignment which I completed earlier and left to college. My previous headache was gone now and It is replaced with nervousness.

I don't know if I had the courage to see him or not but my heart yearned to see him. I entered the class directly and told Nidhu that I had headache and that's why I came during lunch even without looking into her eyes. Thank god we share only one class with each other or else it would be very difficult to handle her.

" Why do you always treat me like I am no one to you? I always try to be as much friendly and close to you but you never open up to me. Why? Don't you believe me? " she said staring at me but I was looking down and my tears were ready to shed any second now.

" It's not like that Nidhu. It's just that I am not comfortable around many people and that is the reason I don't socialize much and I trust you promise. Please believe me Nidhu there is nothing to hide " I said almost controlling my tears fearing she could suspect something if I cry in front of her. Yes, I believe her but I don't want to tell her anything yet. I need time and I hope Nidhu will understand my situation and give me time.

" It's okay but you should inform me if there is anything which is bothering you. Understand? " she questioned seriously and when I looked at her she was smiling. She is just pretending to be angry and I thought she is serious.

" Sure Nidhu, I will definitely tell you if there is anything " I assured her with a small smile.

" I forgot to tell you that I am going to shopping today and Sree agreed to come. I want you to come, you know we can have some girls time and if you come I will tell him not to come ". I actually wanted to go but if she already informed Sreedhar, I am not going and I don't want him to drop only coz I am joining her.

" Umm.. sorry Nidhu but I can't go with you I have some work and I will be busy. Maybe we will go some other time " I don't know when will that day comes when we both would shop together but for now I don't want to go.

" Okay fine I will go with him and make him buy all my cosmetics " she winked at me.

Meanwhile our teacher came and took all our assignments and inspected them carefully. For few she told to rewrite as it was not up to date. I thought even mine was not that good but when she saw it, she gave me a smile and said it was good. Now I am happy that atleast I don't have to write it again.

Time flew away quickly and I solely concentrated on the class rather than him.

It was time to leave and Nidhu left already as she was waiting eagerly to do shopping. My headache was not yet gone completely and I wanted to grab a coffee at the canteen. I went and took my coffee and started sipping it slowly. Today the canteen was less crowded due to weekend and I was happy that I don't have to worry about people staring at me and asking why was I sitting alone. I was so engrossed in my own thoughts that I didn't realize someone sitting behind me and I realized it was his voice.

He was exactly sitting behind me and I was able to hear him clearly as canteen was almost empty.

" Do you think there will be someone who will be interested in me? " he asked Tara who is his best friend and I find him always with her. At first, I thought they are in a relationship due to their closeness but later I got to know that Tara is already engaged and he is just her best friend. My breath hitched when he asked her that question coz I didn't expect he would read the letter and now I see he already read it.

" What do you exactly mean by interested Sunny? " she asked in return.

" Hoo you know what I meant to ask. Don't act smart Tara " he said and I couldn't see any of his expressions as I am behind him. I started sweating and I don't know if they could find me and tease for acting like a kid and writing a letter.

Yes, they are our super-seniors and they even ragged me as I am the junior.

" Okay fine. But I don't think any of the girls we know are interested in you. And I can't assure you about it coz who knows what goes in others mind and heart " she simply said.

" But why are you asking this Sunny? I mean I never found you asking such questions and now suddenly what happened? " she questioned. I am almost at the edge now. Will he tell her that there is someone writing letters to him?

" It's nothing I just wanted to know if anyone could be interested in me or not. I was just wondering that's it " he said. Now I could release the breath which I was holding for a long time. It means he is not going to tell anyone about this.

" Only if you say so but if there is something which you are hiding then you better know that I am not going to spare you for hiding from me " she said and he laughed at her.

It was time for me to go and if I sit here for more time, they may suspect me and I don't want it so I just left from there immediately.