To someone special

CHAPTER 46

Nainika's POV:

I looked at him bewildered. I was happy and sad at the same time. I was happy that he came and that relaxed my heart which was restless for the whole week and sad that he actually came. I didn't want him to contact me. I want him to lead his life on his own but still why is he bothering himself. After knowing the truth he need not to come for me.
" I am real. You can touch me if you want " he said with an encouraging gaze and I touched his extended hand. I can feel it and I was about to take away my hand when he tightened his grip on my hand making me skip my heart beat.
He was just holding my hand but it felt too intimate to me. I can feel my cheeks burning.
" Ma'am your coffee " Seema said after knocking it and was shocked for a moment after seeing our hands. I closed my eyes in embarrassment but she just smiled.
" What are you doing Sunayn? This is office and what are you trying to prove by holding my hand? " I said to him not wanting to feel desperate.
" I am not trying to prove but I am trying to show " he said and took coffee with his  other hand. I could feel my headache increasing so I forcefully pulled my hand away and took my coffee mug.
" And what exactly are you trying to show? " I said feigning irritation but I am sure I was failing coz he smirked at me. I want to wipe that smirk off his face but at the moment I should concentrate on my growing headache not on his smirk.
" Can we go...to a more secluded place? " He asked looking through the office and I finished my coffee before thinking of any place.
" Okay come. Let's go " I said and made my way out, with him behind. He waved his hand at Seema and I just sighed. Why did he have to be so charming?
I took him to the top floor where there was a terrace. An open place where there will be seclusion as he asked.
" Now tell me. What do you want to show? " I asked folding my hands on my chest.
" Nainika I need to clear things with you. I know I fucked up hard by leaving you that day like that after knowing the truth about you but trust me I just wanted some space. I didn't intend to leave you in such a situation but I couldn't help. I couldn't think. I couldn't say.... " He said while searching for words.
" And you did the right thing by leaving me Sunayn. I am happy you chose what suits you the most. You didn't need to come here. I accepted my fate a long time ago and I do not want to force someone into it. You may leave " I said turning to the other side. Tears burned in my eyes. I cannot face him in these years. I should act strong and make him believe that I am happy with what I have.
" What did you just say? " He said and turned me towards him harshly. He cupped my cheeks and looked into my eyes. I bit my lower lip tightly in between my teeth not wanting to show him my vulnerability but what he did next just shocked me. He removed my lip under my teeth and looked into my eyes.
" You know what? I still want you. I still want to spend my life with you. I want to have arguments with you. I want to cook food for you. I want to have lovely memories with you. I want to keep you so fucking happy that you missed in your life. I just want to do everything in my will just to see that smile on your face " he said with so many emotions that tears rolled down my cheeks.
" But why me Sunayn? You..you could..." I was about to say but he put his finger on my lips giving me shivers.
" You speak a lot. Don't you Nainika? " He said still looking into my eyes and I could only concentrate on his finger which was placed on my lips.
" I can make you shut up in many ways but for now this will be enough I guess. Just listen to me okay? " He said and I nodded still in daze.
" No matter how you are I do not care. The only thing that I care about is you. Only you matter to me. I don't know how I developed so many feelings for you. But by reading your letters I started feeling you inside me. I never thought you were away from me. I knew you were living with those letters and trust me when I say that those letters helped me breathe when I was out of control. Your letters gave me strength which I don't know I had. Your letters gave me encouragement that no one did or said. Your letters gave me the energy to start over again and again if I fail. Your letters are so close to me that I didn't realise when I started loving you. it was like years ago. I fell in love with you even before seeing you. Even before I knew you personally. Now after I saw you I had this magnetic pull towards you. Sometimes I felt I was cheating the person I loved but my heart never cheated. It was with the person it loved. You. It realised it was you even before I realised it. When I saw my photo in your home I doubted that it might be you but when I heard you talking to that guy in that restaurant I came to the conclusion that it was you from the beginning and I swear that guy was a little too touchy with you " he said through his teeth in anger.
I gulped looking at his anger and I tried to calm him down.
" He's... he's Vinay. He's just my cousin. We are just friends nothing more than that. We have known each other since childhood... That's why we...we are sort of clos...close " I stuttered when he looked at me with anger.
" Even if he is close to you, you are not supposed to be too touchy with him " he said dangerously coming close to me.
" Why? What's the problem? " I said looking at him. I was engulfed with so much fear that I didn't even blink my eyes.
" Coz you are mine. That's the problem. Whatever is mine will not be touched by anyone unless it is me. And I do not tolerate you encouraging it. You are fucking mine " he said looking into my eyes and did I say that my stomach did somersaults.
Slowly the weather started changing. It became cloudy like my mind. The heavy wind was blowing like there was going to rain. He was still holding my face in his hands. He slowly trailed his hands down leaving fireworks the place he touched. Now his hands were on my waist and I couldn't stop the blush crept on my face imagining the position we are in. When I looked at his face he was looking into my eyes and then at my lips and that caught me off guard. My breathing became rigid and I was not understanding to stop this from happening or let it go with flow. He was staring deeply at my lips and I wet my lips involuntarily. He slowly bent towards my face making me breathless. His eyes looked into mine as if asking for permission which I couldn't deny so I looked at his lips which looked like candies.
As if on cue he slowly touched his lips with mine. That's it. I surrendered to him. My hands made way towards his shoulders fisting his shirt tightly.
He was moving his lips ever so sensually that I controlled the wetness pooling in between my thighs. I became weak and was about to fall due to the sensations running in my body but due to his hold on my waist I was stable.
My hand slipped into his hair which was ever so smooth wanting me to never leave them.
Slowly it started drizzling making it the most beautiful moment in my life.
We were not showing any interest that we are getting wet in the rain. All we were minding was our lips moving in perfect sync leaving butterflies in my stomach.
He was holding me tightly and at the same time making me go crazy all over him.
" That was an amazing first kiss " he said as soon as we moved away and I was engrossed in the feeling of his lips on mine. He was still holding me and I was still fisting his shirt and we are still in rain getting drenched but we did not care.
" Now do you understand how much I love you? " He asked me.
" I do not know how to.. " I was about to say.
" You do not have to say anything. I know what you feel towards me and the feelings are mutual. But I want to ask you something? " He said.
" What? " I whispered.
" Can we kiss again? I want to feel your lips on mine in this rain. It's quite too romantic in this weather " I chuckled and nodded.
The second I nodded I was yet pulled into another breathtaking kiss which felt amazing. I was feeling like flying with these feelings. Sunayn. The person I loved for so many years standing in front of me with his arms around me and kissing me mindlessly. I cannot wipe away this moment. It will be forever close to my heart.
When we pulled away he had a smile on his face while I was blushing like a mad woman.
" Let's get out of here before we get cold " he said and dragged me. I was not in this world to know what was happening. I was still in my moment. I do not know when we reached the parking lot and he looked at me and was scratching his neck awkwardly.
" Stop looking at me like that. I cannot say you but when you give me that look it's very hard for me to be in control " he said.
" Huh? " I was confused.
" I did not do anything " I said clearing my throat to gain his attention which seems to be nowhere near me but my lips.
" You doing nothing is a big turn on. You will not understand me " he said and asked me to come on his bike. It was raining and I did not want to get more drenched. So I suggested that we go in my car while his bike will be fetched by someone to my home.
We sat in silence till we reached home. I went to the bedroom to change my clothes while he stood in the hall. I was looking in the mirror and touched my lips which were slightly red. I blushed remembering the kiss we shared. I quickly changed my clothes and brought Sunayn spare clothes of Ranjith to change. He changed them in the spare bathroom and I gave him a towel. I went to the kitchen to prepare coffee and I came out with coffee mugs to see him scrolling through different channels.
I gave him a cup while I sipped mine. There was an eerie silence and the rain was still pouring heavily. I looked through the window and Sunayn was looking at me.
" What? " I questioned.
" I want to tell you something " he said and I furrowed my brows.
" What I said earlier is nothing but truth. I love you no matter what. I am ready to give our relationship a name. That is love. You might think I'm making this decision out of pity or sympathy towards you but trust me it's nothing but pure love that I have towards you. I love the fact that I am in love with someone like you and I adore you so much " he said with pure sincerity. My eyes filled with tears after hearing him say those words. I yearned for years to hear these words but now after hearing them from him it all makes sense. He is someone who would die to be with someone if he truly loves them. And I feel the luckiest to have him for myself.
I do not know what came over me but I just hugged him tightly and he rubbed my back understanding my feelings.
" You should really stop talking like a poet. It gives me butterflies in my stomach " I said after I pulled out. I clicked my tongue after I registered what I said and saw him chuckling.
" In that case I am never going to stop talking like a poet, then you will have a butterfly garden in your tummy " he chuckled poking my tummy and making me giggle.

I am going to end the book very soon.
Bye..take care...