To someone special

CHAPTER 4

Sunayn POV:

My life was always the easy one though I accepted challenges with open arms as I know somehow in future, I need to face many consequences which eventually gives me challenges. I will complete my degree in a few months and I am preparing for NDA exams. Well I am a selfish person who never ever loved someone atleast not a girl coz I am just busy loving myself and future. It's not like I don't love anyone at all coz I love my parents, friends and of course my sister.

I never felt a need to love or to be loved coz I am contented with whatever and whoever I have in my life. Well there was a girl who said she started falling for me during my school but after that I came to know that she recently got married to someone else and very happy in her life. I wanted to laugh now when I thought about that girl coz she was just attracted towards me and she thought she loved me. Not many girls will be interested in me due to my demeanor and I am well acquainted with the sentence " no girls allowed coz I am busy with my life babe😉

Now I am busy with my practice and as said busy. As usual my life goes with regular chores like college, studies, food, practice, gym etc..

Like a regular day I went to college and sat in my seat absentmindedly looking through my phone and waiting for my lecturer to bless us with his presence. I put my things in the desk regularly and as I was doing it, I found something and that was a paper.

A paper? I don't think I had placed any paper in the desk and to my surprise it was folded properly and it felt like someone kept it intentionally over there. My bench mate has been not attending coz he is sort of busy with his work and I don't think if he wanted to tell me something, he would text me rather than a paper chit.

Then what is it?

When I was about to open it, I felt my lecturer's presence and placed it in my bag as fast as I could. The classes turned out be completed in a blur and it was already lunch and to be frank I am very hungry. We made our way to the canteen as usual and had lunch. I wanted to sit in my favorite place where I find peace so I excused myself and sat in the garden where I usually sit.

This is the place which I really miss after leaving college. The cool air, the birds singing along and this particular seat always holds a special place in my heart. It is the place where I had met my friends for the first time. It is the place where I smoke peacefully without any interruption. It feels like this place is ought to memorize. My phone started ringing and I received it while leaving the place.

With a huge sigh I left the place and entered into the boring class. After college I went straight to my home, took a long shower and then opened my laptop to do some documentation work which I left incomplete.

Shit! I had some printed papers in my bag so I unzipped it only to find the paper to be particular a letter. I don't know if it is for me or not but I will just check and with that I opened it.

Hey!!

I don't think you know me and I also don't want you to know me either..

You might be wondering from where this creepy letter has reached you and you might be the wrong person who received it. But let me tell you that I am writing this letter to you and only you Sunayn...

I don't have enough confidence to face you and talk to you so I am writing you this letter and let me tell, you will not be able to find me until I wanted to let you know who am I?

Don't think I am blackmailing you for something or wanted to blackmail now in any way coz I can't imagine you going through any of that and remember that I always wanted you to be happy and that smile of yours will make my day and my life too...

I want to tell so many things to you Sunayn but I don't want you to panic after receiving this letter, I promise I will write more in the next letter..

Don't try to search for me coz I am sure u can't find me too...

Your's well wisher and l...

Bye..

I was surprised will be a small word to the feeling I was experiencing. I had never expected any girl to like me and writing a letter is far expected.

Who it can be? It is clearly written that I don't know her then why did she write this letter?

The way she wrote the letter gives me a feeling that she is in pain.

I couldn't do any work thereafter coz I was thinking about the girls who I know and who knows me. I even checked my online friends etc but nowhere I found a trance of this particular girl.

The next day I wanted to discuss this with Tara coz somehow, I thought she could help me. I was absentmindedly looking at all the girls in college but I don't think I was able to find her. My friend even teased me saying I was checking out girls. I didn't answer him coz I know I was staring at each girl like a hawk even without blinking. I was making assumptions of each girl writing that letter but I didn't find the pain in anyone which I felt yesterday while reading the letter.

Is that girl really in pain?

Can I find who this girl is before she completely drowns herself in pain?

Does she knows me for real or is this some kind of prank?

I don't know who this girl is but she had occupied my thoughts the whole day. I really started to get anxious about her next letter. She said she will tell more in her next letter so I hope she will tell her name atleast.

As soon as it was lunch time, I dragged Tara away from everyone to canteen. I know today is a half day so no one will be there eager to leave college as early as possible. I found that canteen was actually almost empty with only girl probably sipping her coffee or tea. We sat at the table a little far from her so that our conversation will be private. I don't care even if anyone hears but I want it to be a secret until I finally meet that girl in person.

When I talked about any girl interested in me, she said there is no one. And she even threatened me if I was hiding something from her. I assured her it was nothing but only I know how much of a lie it is. We had coffee with little chat and I was completely concentrating on Tara's words.

Note the sarcasm!!

She left after sometime and I was left with my thoughts again. I hope I receive a letter very soon. I was searching my whole desk today hoping to see a letter there but I was disappointed when I didn't find any.

Why am I feeling disappointed if I don't receive a letter?

I am just going insane. I will not bother myself until I receive letter. I should focus on my work rather than a mere letter.