My Crazy Ex [박지민] under editing

chapter 36 begining

Yoonji pov
I woke up and rubbed my eyes sleepily. I switched on my phone and checked the time. It was 10am in the morning. Too early but it's time to wake up anyway.

I got up out of bed and went to the bathroom to do my brush and wash my face. I dried my face with a towel and walked out of the bathroom. I went to the kichen for breakfast.

I saw yoongi making breakfast which was nice. I stood besides him drooling.

"Oh you're up?" He chuckled glancing at my crazed expression. I nodded and helped him alittle with making breakfast.

A while had passed and then we were done with making breakfast. Just then as we were going to sit at the table I saw someone walk into the kitchen. My jaw dropped.

"Hey hyung, you made breakfast!-oh hey yoonji!" My eyes widened and I quickly hid behind yoongi.

"What is he doing here!?" I whisper yelled at yoongi still wearily looking at the guy who had just walked in.

"U-uh don't worry yoonji, he is just here for breakfast" he reasured while I was just continuing to hide myself behind yoongi for my life.

"I'm here and you know I have a masheti in my pocket, so you're safe with me" he said, dead serious. Okay fine...but l am so confused.

We all sat at the table and ate our breakfast. I glared opposite from me.

"So jimin... why are you here?" I asked wondering why did he come back here. Why didn't yoongi stop him from coming here?

"I just wanted to come here and apologise" he paused. I felt shocked because I didn't expect him to say that.

"You want to apologise?" I questioned.

"Yeah- I didn't mean anything I did" he continued to speak quickly glancing at yoongi to continue.

"I already forgave you" I breathed finishing my food and looking to yoongi. I knew that maybe they had talked before. I am quite surprised that yoongi didn't kill him and by the looks of it, listened to him.

We had all finished and were quietly sitting and waiting. Why wasn't anyone saying anything?

"Yoonji? Can you forgive me?" I heard jimin ask.

"Yeah" I answered. I can't hold grudges but I don't understand what he is trying to imply.

"Yoongi doesn't hate me anymore" he smiled genuinely and glancing at yoongi. I heard yoongi chuckle and nod.

"I never hated you jimin" he chidded. I felt slightly relieved at that fact. I'm happy yoongi never held a grudge.

The room fell silent and you could even hear a pin drop. I had a feeling about what he was going to ask.

"Do you still love me?" He asked. There was a pit in the bottom of my stomach. I didn't know what to stay. I do. But what will happen if I say yes? What will happen if I say no?

Will things go wrong? If I can't trust his promises, then how will our relationship live. We can't be together if we can't trust each other. I suddenly felt really overwhelmed.

"I-i don't know" I quickly stuttered feeling my chest being heavy. I looked at yoongi and his eyes quickly widened.

"S-sorry-" I muttered out standing up and rushing out of the living room. Yoongi got up behind me and closed the door behind us.

"Breathe...come on" he calmed me down and helped me breath steadily.

It took a while before I was able to regain myself and breath properly. I looked at his worried expression and his face relaxed when he saw I was alright.

"Are you good?" He worried. I nodded and gave a small thumbs up.

We heard a knock and looked towards the door.

"Is she okay?" He stressed worriedly glancing at me. Yoongi nodded as a relpy and looked back down at me.

"Go lay down, don't stress about anything" yoongi smiled and patted my shoulder. I nodded tiredly and walked towards the stairs.

I heard them talk while walking back into the living room. I guess thing are back to normal. But why am I so scared of loving him back. Surly what he did was a mistake but why am I not letting myself love?

I walked to my room and got into bed. I didn't really feel like sleeping because it was still morning.

I wonder if I'd eved be able to love him the way I did before.